Music as therapy

This evening I had a massage. While I lay there on the table, I tried to…

This storm too shall pass

Life is not easy at this moment. It feels like we are caught up in a…

Spring is coming!

Last weekend when I looked out the window, the world around us was white, covered in…

I’m a giver, giving is imprinted in my DNA

I must have started this post a million times. First I wanted to write about it…

Christmas bows and an arrow

A couple of days ago I shared an image for the kink advent calendar, of bright…

Six things for advent

You might have noticed that I am participating in The SWC Kinky Community Advent Calendar. I…

History repeats, the good and the bad

They say history repeats itself, in that happenings of the past, seem to happen again in…

F*ck 2020, but I’m thankful too

F*ck 2020. Just fuck 2020. There, I said it. I’m upset as I write this. Upset.…

Life is good!

“Life is good.” This is something Master T and I had said to each other so…

Recurring Dreams

I’m crossing the street. Trying to cross the street. The other side seems so far away.…

Never blog for someone else

So many people have asked me: how do you manage to do all you do? Believe…

Denial as coping mechanism

Denial is a coping mechanism that gives you time to adjust to distressing situations — but…

I don’t suffer from social anxiety, but…

Content notice: Guilt syndrome, fear of conflict, extreme nervousness, hyperventilation. … I was bordering on the…

A motto, why?

During the evening of New Year’s Eve 2019 as I wrote my post for the first…

Seasonal Emotions

It’s twelve days before Christmas, and since a couple of days tears have been closer than…

I fucking miss my mom

Tuesday was my daughter’s 36th birthday and that was the third day in a row I…

Continuously on reset…

As I have mentioned many times on this blog before, our D/s is currently not as…

One Step Back

My regular readers will have noticed: for months now a new blog post appeared on my…

We will prevail…

Mental Health and it’s impact on your sexuality, erotic well-being, and/or sexual relationships I have written…

Overwhelming Grief

I didn’t think I would write another post about my grief after mom passed away, now…

I Hate Bullies!

Back in May 2018 (god has it really been that long?), I left an comment on…

Discharged from Therapy

Today is the 20th of December 2018. This afternoon I had an appointment with my psychologist.…

Balance(d)

It’s almost Christmas and the end of the year is fast approaching. I am incredibly busy…

Following Fingers

Why didn’t I dare to talk to my mom that last day? Why didn’t I dare…