It has been months, seriously, months since I had an orgasm at his hand. Oh, I had orgasms, but all of those were ‘functional’. That’s how I call the orgasms when I feel horny and when it’s not about enjoying my body, but only about getting off. There was a time when I totally enjoyed ... continue reading
Finding a New Normal
Many times in the last couple of weeks I have mentioned that I want to talk to Master T, and many of you have given me advice in this. Yes, I can discuss absolutely everything with him. All I have to do is to sit down with him, and start talking. Easy, right? Only thing ... continue reading
Failing Bodies
Some time ago I left this comment on Feve’s post If problem persists, please contact Technical Support at 1-800-GIV-0FUX. I don’t know where to start on my comment… I have never once, after seeing the question and posting it as a prompt for Wicked Wednesday, thought about the failing human mechanism of the body as ... continue reading
Sleeping Together Apart
Last year we renovated our bedroom. It was on the list for years before we finally took action. Everything we had in our bedroom were things either Master T already had when I moved in or that I brought with me, or things we bought to solve a problem of not enough space for clothes ... continue reading
Cold Water
I had this bizarre dream… If there is one thing I hate, it’s cold water. Yes, when I go to the loo, I wash my hand… with cold water. That’s okay. When I drink water, I prefer it to be cold That’s okay. My shower water is always very hot, and sometimes, the last second ... continue reading
My First Love
Write a letter to your first love…or to your younger self at that time. What did you take away from that relationship? What do you remember? Are your memories happy, sad…bittersweet? How did you grow? My first love was a disaster, and with someone whom I definitely don’t want to write a letter to. It ... continue reading
Menstruation Matters
I am deliberately giving my post the same name as Bee’s new meme, in order for it to get as much exposure as possible, since I feel this is an important subject to write about. Important enough for me to share my experiences, even though I haven’t menstruated for 27 years. Yes, I am almost ... continue reading
The Crown
Believe in yourself, and the rest will fall into place. Have faith in your own abilities, work hard, and there is nothing you cannot accomplish. ~ Brad Henry It’s about time I write this post. I have been thinking of the words ever since I learned that I have made the number one spot on ... continue reading
Four Symbols
On the symbolic day (to me) of 19 December 2018 at fifteen minutes before the clock struck ten that morning, I arrived at the tattoo shop. The tattoo artist wasn’t there yet, but I didn’t mind. This gave me the moments I needed to calm my nerves and have a cup of tea. There always ... continue reading
Discharged from Therapy
Today is the 20th of December 2018. This afternoon I had an appointment with my psychologist. The last. I have been discharged from therapy. In my last post about my therapy, I told you about how I was following fingers. I ended it with: I feel lighter. Different. I’m definitely holding onto this feeling… The ... continue reading
Happy New Year 2019!
When the bells ring out at midnight and you raise your glass in cheer. May your worries be few and love be grand all throughout the year. May every sunrise greet you with the gift of good health and joy; And every sunset fill your heart with peace and love. ~ Natalie Ducey HAPPY NEW ... continue reading
Reflecting & Planning
To many people December is a month of reflection. Looking back on the year that’s running out and forward to the year that’s about to start. Readers who regularly read my blog (thank you!), know that the last two years have not been easy for me. Ever since September 2016, my life has changed. It ... continue reading