Some time ago I had a conversation with Molly, and suddenly something struck me: I am content with our situation as it is now. Sometimes only a few words can make me realize things I haven’t seen clearly before. Let me explain… I have never been a person to connect the dots, especially not when ... continue reading
“I’ll get started tomorrow…”
“I’ll get started tomorrow…” What behavior or activity do you keep pushing off until tomorrow? What reasons do you use to delay the change. What if you were ordered-directed by your dominant to make the change. Would you still find valid reasons to delay it? Source Oh how many times have I told myself in ... continue reading
Something’s Missing
Tomorrow I have to go to the grief counselor again. The last time was six weeks ago. It should have been three weeks, but I canceled that. I told her I didn’t want to waste her time as I have not done my assignment, but also that it was too busy at work. Both reasons ... continue reading
Pick Me Up
“The worst loneliness is to not be comfortable with yourself.” ~ Mark Twain In my years of sex blogging and reading blogs, I have come across a lot of people who are dealing with mental health problems. This ranges from being stressed to being severely depressed. What I love is that many sex bloggers openly ... continue reading
Seven Good and Seven Bad
There was a time when I was told that happiness comes in cycles of seven. The first seven years of a relationship/marriage are suppose to be the good years, and then comes the seven bad or meager years. Of course, this stems from the Bible, but you also hear people who have not been raised ... continue reading
Disconnecting
My assignment for the third appointment with my grief counselor wasn’t to write anything, but I had to think about the social contacts I have. This is because of what I had said in the previous appointment, that I told my mom everything. She wanted me to think about my social contacts to see if ... continue reading
Processing More
Some weeks ago I started sharing the process I am now: dealing with the grief of losing my mom, who has always been a huge support in my life, someone who was just always there, whether we lived in the same house or far apart from each other. For the second appointment with the grief ... continue reading
Fucking, Unexpected
It happened. It really happened. It actually fucking happ… Did someone say fucking? Oh yes. Fucking’s exactly what happened! You can tell that I am in high spirits, right? Yes, really I am. What happened was totally unexpected but so incredibly welcome. It started at our regular hangout… I was teasing Master T a bit, ... continue reading
Brazilian Wax Gone Wrong
For close to a year now I have gone for a Brazilian wax every four weeks, except for a break during December 2017 and January 2018. The first couple of treatments were painful, but my skin started getting used to it and the hair got less. Yes, they still hurt but definitely less than before. ... continue reading
Dealing With Grief
My mom died on 12 July 2017. My mom was buried on 19 July 2017. Our house flooded on 20 July 2017. I pushed my grief away. One, because I couldn’t bear it. My mom, who was not only my mom, but a protector, my friend, almost like a sister… one of the pillars of ... continue reading