F*ck 2020, but I’m thankful too

F*ck 2020. Just fuck 2020. There, I said it. I’m upset as I write this. Upset.…

Haunted in my dreams

I don’t believe in ghosts, although I do believe that the presence of those we love…

True to myself, changing about page to be more ‘me’

Don’t lose who you are, in the blur of the starsSeeing is deceiving, dreaming is believingIt’s…

Socialize on social media

I struggleI juggleI could just throw a line to youBut I should let sleeping dogs lie…

One defining moment after the other

Looking back on my life, I know there have been some defining moments, moments that changed…

Some doors closed during lockdown

Mid March — on the sixteenth to be specific — we went into lockdown. Now the…

I’m confident, most of the time…

I never had confidence – never. The hardest thing to know is your own worth, and…

Relaxing? What’s that?

According to the dictionary, to relax is to become less active and more calm and happy.…

Lock-down Love and Life

I have already written about how the lock-down has ‘stolen’ the last bit of my libido…

My Experience with Alcohol

It’s Friday evening as I sit at my desk, starting to write this post. Next to…

Recurring Dreams

I’m crossing the street. Trying to cross the street. The other side seems so far away.…

Never blog for someone else

So many people have asked me: how do you manage to do all you do? Believe…

Denial as coping mechanism

Denial is a coping mechanism that gives you time to adjust to distressing situations — but…

I don’t suffer from social anxiety, but…

Content notice: Guilt syndrome, fear of conflict, extreme nervousness, hyperventilation. … I was bordering on the…

Don’t stop believin’

For the past three and a half years Master T has been struggling with his health.…

Don’t worry about me…

Don’t worry about me, I’ll be fine. Just don’t look into my eyes. ~ Life quote…

Mutual dependence

Codepencency… excessive emotional or psychological reliance on a partner, typically a partner who requires support due…

A motto, why?

During the evening of New Year’s Eve 2019 as I wrote my post for the first…

Seasonal Emotions

It’s twelve days before Christmas, and since a couple of days tears have been closer than…

I fucking miss my mom

Tuesday was my daughter’s 36th birthday and that was the third day in a row I…

Continuously on reset…

As I have mentioned many times on this blog before, our D/s is currently not as…

Those first two doors…

I happened to see the questions for this prompt on Twitter, and immediately my mind started…

Memories & Moments

Memories can be sparked by simple things – a song on the radio, a smell, a…

One Step Back

My regular readers will have noticed: for months now a new blog post appeared on my…