A sign of weakness

In our lives, the breaking point is a sign of weakness and we’ll do everything we…

Masturbation pleasure and problems

When I was younger, masturbation was much different from what it is nowadays. Getting older definitely…

Libido taking a backseat

Almost a year ago, in May 2020, I wrote about my sex drive being gone. After…

The first signs of menopause

There is a whole list of symptoms of menopause, but since we are all individuals, not…

Music as therapy

This evening I had a massage. While I lay there on the table, I tried to…

This storm too shall pass

Life is not easy at this moment. It feels like we are caught up in a…

On being positive about my body, but…

I have posted many an image of myself, in various poses, combined with positive words about…

I’m a giver, giving is imprinted in my DNA

I must have started this post a million times. First I wanted to write about it…

Six things for advent

You might have noticed that I am participating in The SWC Kinky Community Advent Calendar. I…

F*ck 2020, but I’m thankful too

F*ck 2020. Just fuck 2020. There, I said it. I’m upset as I write this. Upset.…

Haunted in my dreams

I don’t believe in ghosts, although I do believe that the presence of those we love…

True to myself, changing about page to be more ‘me’

Don’t lose who you are, in the blur of the starsSeeing is deceiving, dreaming is believingIt’s…

Socialize on social media

I struggleI juggleI could just throw a line to youBut I should let sleeping dogs lie…

LCHF 22: It’s time again!

Continued from #LCHF 21: Two months in In the first half of August I had my…

Some doors closed during lockdown

Mid March — on the sixteenth to be specific — we went into lockdown. Now the…

I’m confident, most of the time…

I never had confidence – never. The hardest thing to know is your own worth, and…

Relaxing? What’s that?

According to the dictionary, to relax is to become less active and more calm and happy.…

Lock-down Love and Life

I have already written about how the lock-down has ‘stolen’ the last bit of my libido…

My Experience with Alcohol

It’s Friday evening as I sit at my desk, starting to write this post. Next to…

Recurring Dreams

I’m crossing the street. Trying to cross the street. The other side seems so far away.…

Fit at home

Bottom line: I am not staying fit. Not at home. Not anywhere. And that needs to…

Denial as coping mechanism

Denial is a coping mechanism that gives you time to adjust to distressing situations — but…

The pitfalls of eating out

I am writing this as I sit in the lobby of the Holiday Inn in Camden,…

I don’t suffer from social anxiety, but…

Content notice: Guilt syndrome, fear of conflict, extreme nervousness, hyperventilation. … I was bordering on the…