Changes & Choices: It’s All About Life

Image of a green street sign with the words 'time for change' on it, to go with my post about choices and changes.

About a month ago, I shared a post in which I questioned memes, and whether we have outgrown them. By the end of that post, I knew changes had to be made. I needed to take a step back to look at everything I have in my life and then make choices.

Those changes are necessary to create space and structure — both physically and mentally.

A bit of background

I touched on our housing situation in the post I linked above. Eighteen years ago, I moved in with Master T, his mom, and his daughter. Back then, it was still his mom’s house, which meant I couldn’t take my rightful place as ‘lady of the house’. When we bought new furniture, I agreed to it, because he and his mom liked it. Of course, I liked the furniture, but in hindsight, if I had had the guts back then to offer my opinion, I would never have bought it. Not because it’s ugly, but when buying expensive furniture, you don’t easily replace it.

And so it happened with more stuff we gained, even after his mom moved out.

I now know — thanks to a life coach — the above is part of people-pleasing, something I had learned at a much too young age.

Which is why, when I committed to something, I pushed myself to the edge. I barely ever said no.
(Up to a month ago, that sentence should’ve been in the present tense, but not anymore.)

A three-week holiday

I had a holiday coming up for three weeks in May, and since we can’t go away because of Master T’s health, I needed the holiday to have a purpose.

A change is as good as a holiday

That’s what they say, right? That changes make us feel good?

I explained to Master T what I wanted to do, but not so much the what, but the why. That I needed to finally take ownership of the house. That I felt lost. That for so long I had been doing things to please him, to please others, even when initially those were my choices.

It wasn’t only that.

For months, I have felt overwhelmed with all I do. My online stuff, that is. One day I was so low that I even contemplated just removing all my online stuff. Everything. Taking a step back, and looking at my activities, I realized there were choices to be made.

I explained to Master T I needed goals for my May holiday, that when I return to work, I have mental and physical space and structure. He needed to think about what I said (he’s not big on anything that looks like mindfulness or remotely ‘floaty’) but a week before my holiday started, we had a list of goals.

Choices and changes

You can say I took everything and threw it on one pile — and here I really mean everything. The house, my online presence, my job, my offline presence.


What irritated me? What gave me energy? What dragged me down? What put a smile on my face? What things did we need, and what could we do without?

Examining things from all sides, I realized my entire life was like a closet stuffed so full you can barely close the doors, just like the one in the romantic comedy 27 Dresses! I wanted to do the same Jane Nichols (played by Katherine Heigl) did: throw out the excess! - Tumbex

Now a lot happened in our house in those three weeks. We threw away a lot of stuff, but also brought some to the secondhand store, or had them collect the bigger stuff. Doors had been painted, and the purpose of empty rooms changed. I now have a dedicated work room, both for work-from-home days, as for working on my bullet journal and just having a quiet space. We went from an overfull interior to almost minimalist, creating physical space.

That left only my online presence.

Online changes

Online I have Rebel’s Notes, Wicked Wednesday, The Menopause Diaries, Medium and Blogable.

My heart broke thinking of stopping with Rebel’s Notes, so I quickly rejected that idea. What’s more, there’s a huge overlap between Rebel’s Notes and Medium, which means I write something once, and can post it on both sites.

Blogable is just as close to my heart as Rebel’s Notes, especially because the fiction marathon has found it’s home there, and I don’t have to do all the writing myself. May and I share our knowledge, but we also have others writing posts and sharing their wisdom.

I had a good look at the memes. You might’ve noticed that The Menopause Diaries paused after February 2022. I have written about the dwindling numbers. Also, it’s the same people every week who link, and some of us link two posts to raise the numbers. It might look easy to run a meme, but those who have once done it know it’s not. It takes work. For nine-and-a-half years, I have done that work with pleasure, but not anymore.

So getting back to my very first sentence above: we might not have outgrown them, but I have.

Wicked Wednesday is ten years old, and The Menopause Diaries has its own domain since February 2021. The prompt ‘Ten Years’ is the last prompt for Wicked Wednesday, and ‘Hormone Replacement Therapy’ was the last prompt for The Menopause Diaries back in February 2022. Both these prompts will stay open until 31 December 2022. Yes, I know I said ‘Ten Years’ was the last prompt, so check both sites on 11 June for more news!

Yes, I’m sad, but also relieved

I haven’t made any decisions lightly. It’s the result of weeks of thinking, as well as months of coaching helping me understand and getting in touch with the real me. It feels right. Stopping with the memes, as well as all the other changes we have made. Maybe, with everything more balanced, I will finally be able to just curl up in my new recliner with a book for the first time in many years.

© Rebel’s Notes
Image by Gerd Altmann from Pixabay

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22 thoughts on “Changes & Choices: It’s All About Life

  1. It can be very difficult to put in order not only the wardrobe, but also your whole life. Not only can you not decide to start this routine work, it is also important that you have enough strength and patience to bring this matter to some acceptable end. Therefore, this work cannot be started spontaneously. It is important to think over everything and determine in advance all the goals and ways to achieve them.

  2. Put you first Marie! You are slowly, gradually learning to do it. I am glad that, if it was no longer bringing you joy, you decided what had to ‘give’. I like the prompt you’ve designed to wean us all off it

    1. I am indeed gradually learning it, and I’m thankful the coaching has showed me the way xox

  3. As they say, you can’t pour from am empty cup. I’m glad u are able to do some self care. Of course the meme ends when I start joining them again. I’ll still read your blog and I wish you all the best.

    1. You can still join in with the meme every week until the end of the year. It only closes on 31 December 2022. I look forward to your writing, Wittie, and thank you for your comment.

  4. I am sure this was a decision that involved a lot of emotion but I am so pleased that you have put things in place so that you can take time for yourself. You have created such a community for others but I have always been in awe of how you worked to fit it all in. There are so many people who have benefited from your time, effort and friendship but I can see that you also need to feel the benefits of your efforts in a way that is closer to home. Thank you for being you and for being my friend ❤️

    1. Thank you for your kind comment, Missy. This was a process that had to happen, and a result of the process of finding the real me deep inside, and getting more in touch with the things I want, things I want to do for myself, and not for others. Thank you for all your support over the years, but most of all, for being my friend ♥

  5. I am proud of you! It takes courage to make these sorts of changes. Both memes will be missed, you have done a fabulous job with them. But putting yourself first and decluttering your life a bit sounds like an absolute must. Much love to you and Master T! <3

    1. It really is a MUST, Nora. The decluttering process feels good, and it helps me to get more in touch with the real me inside. Thank you for your comment and much love to you both too ♥

  6. I’m so glad that you are decluttering your life so that it’s the best life for you and Master T. You have brought so much joy to the community–it’s time for you to relax a little and enjoy that same joy.

    I’m so proud to call you my friend. <3

    1. Thank you, Charmer, for your kind words, but most of all for being my friend! <3

  7. I toataly agree with may and wish you and mrT the best. Good luck

  8. Making decisions like this can feel very uplifting – when this happens, you know inside the right decision has been made. I am so happy you have rearranged your living area to be more conducive to positive mental health, and I think a lot of good things witll follow.
    💜 May 💜

    1. Thank you, May. What I am doing now – the decluttering of my home and all the other things I do – is all a result of the coaching process, of finally finding the real me under all the clutter. It feels good to let things go, to make space around me and IN me. Thank you for your support xox

  9. When It was first suggested I start sharing my life experiences, your WW site was the only safe space where I wasn’t mocked or blocked. It seems like a lifetime ago. For all of us.

    Sometimes we must leave behind the old rituals to make way for the different routes forward.

    I’m glad you’re making decisions for yourself based on your needs and wants rather than shaping your plans around others.

    Good luck for all your future writing platforms
    Swirly 🌻🧚🏻‍♀️

    1. Thank you for your kind comment, Swirly. The theme of my life was to always please others, and it’s about time I change that, and start pleasing myself. Thank you for being part of WW, for sharing your stories and help others with your words xox

  10. I’m so glad you’ve been able to declutter and reshape your world, to uncover what is right for you and create a plan moving forward. But more than anything, it pleases me to see you swap stretching yourself for others with som self care. (So, even through pulling back you’re still people pleasing- well, this, pleasing this person anyway) N x

    1. It’s something I needed to do for myself, as in the past years I have packed my life too full, to the point where I never had downtime. That’s gradually changing, and I see myself reading a book for an entire afternoon, or going to the zoo with my camera 🙂 xox

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