Weight loss or no weight loss?

Those who have been reading my blog for a long time might remember my LCHF journey of a couple of years ago. That was 2016 and ran over into 2017, the year I turned 50. I still remember how on top of the world I felt with all the weight I had lost back then.

My weight now

Today, I weigh the same as I did when I changed to a LCHF lifestyle. Okay, maybe a couple of kilograms less, but I will get to that in a moment.

Yes, after those low-carb-high-fat months, and feeling ecstatic about my weight loss, I gradually started gaining again.

Maybe not even gradually.

It was in the time my mom was in and out of hospital, and being a stress-eater, I frequently tried to eat away my sorrow. Watching my mom getting weaker, trying to be strong for her, wanting to give my children a shoulder to lean on… it took its toll. Food, especially sweet stuff — chocolate muffins — comforted me.

I continued eating after she had passed, and by the time I broke down towards the end of 2018, I had gained back all the weight I had lost.

Several times over the past years, I tried getting back to the LCHF lifestyle, but never with success.

Different mindset

I am 2 months away from my 55th birthday, and in the past year or two have come to terms with my overweight. I am menopausal, and that in itself makes it difficult to lose weight.

With every diet I had done in my life, I focused on food. Food I couldn’t eat, food I should eat, how to integrate my diet with family life, allowing myself something sweet and then feeling guilty about it… always food, food, food!

The more I focused on it, the more I resented the curves I saw in the mirror. My self-photography journey helped to change that. I started seeing the beauty of my body lines. It didn’t happen overnight, but the more I accepted myself, the less I wanted to go on the next ‘wonder diet’.

I don’t want my life to be all about the foods I can and can’t eat. I want to look at myself, wearing a nice dress and think: you look beautiful.

And I do!

Losing weight again

Yes, I am losing weight again.

No, I am not on a diet.

I started walking halfway through October. Not because I wanted to lose weight, but because of severe backache due to stress. I walk every day.

Every day.

I don’t walk far, mostly around 3 kilometers, which takes me about 40 minutes nowadays (around 50 when I started). Like I said, the goal was never weight loss, but in the almost 70 consecutive days (!!!) I went out on my walks, I have lost weight. My legs and tummy seem firmer, and where it might not be visible to others, it is to me.

The way forward

It’s said ‘never say never’ but I seriously never want to focus on a diet ever again. If my body was meant to have curves, then curves it will have.

Acceptance is the way forward. Exercise is the way forward. For now, it’s walking, but as I have bought a new bike this year, when we head for spring 2022, I will go out cycling too.

Just me, and whatever book I am listening to at that moment.

© Rebel’s Notes
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10 thoughts on “Weight loss or no weight loss?

  1. I think it’s so hard to accept ourselves as we are. I have grown to hate my post menopausal body, though I am trying hard not to. Walking is my favourite type of exercise along with swimming. Walking is great for mental health as well as physical, and I wish you continued pleasure in doing it.

    1. I had a time where I hated my body for what it has changed into during menopause, but I don’t anymore. It is what it is and it’s better to accept it that way than to make myself unhappy. I will definitely keep on walking, and once the weather improves want to go cycling too. Thank you for your comment.

  2. I am taking a similar path. I focus on activity, sleep, and hydration over diet. And while I do try to eat healthy, for the most part, I don’t deny myself any foods. I eat what I want when I want it. And yes, I weigh more than I’d like (fuck menopause), BUT I have been slowly losing (15 pounds since August) just doing what I’m doing. No workouts, either, I just focus on getting in 10,000 steps on work days and at least 20 active minutes, per my Fitbit. Weekends, I don’t track. This year, I’m going to step that up a bit with a mile walk on as many days as I can manage during the week (99walks is a pretty motivating app). Self-acceptance is good for the soul. And it’s sexy.

  3. There are so many things we cannot control – at times things come along that cause us stress or make us ill. Being able to enjoy our health and mobility while we have it is important. Loving the chance to be alive and be the healthiest version of ourselves in all aspects and to be able to enjoy life…that is a worthy pursuit.

  4. Self acceptance is the happiest way I think. Celebrating what your body is rather than being upset that its not something it was never meant to be. Well done on your walking- one step in front of the other is great progress. N xx

    1. It has taken me half a lifetime to come to the same conclusion. And you’re right, one step in front of the other… it brings me where I want to be 🙂 xox

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