The word patience always makes me smile.
I am not a very patient person. When it’s been decided to do something, whether only by me or between me and Master T, or even at work with a colleague, I want to do it now. I don’t want to wait. Master T, however, is a very patient person, sometimes so much so, that I get totally impatient because of his patience.
But, I am not as bad as I once was, and that’s the reason the word makes me smile, because Master T has taught trained me well.
Training in patience
Back when we made our D/s commitment, both Master T and I went into a kind of frenzy, wanting to play every night. We did, but quickly knew that we would soon burn out. We talked about things we wanted to do, and that’s where my impatience started to rear its head. When something we talked about didn’t happen, the next day or two days after I would hint at it, and sometimes just blatantly asked if Master T still wanted to do it. Over and over he told me I needed to be patient, but I still asked.
Then he decided it was time to train me in patience. This was only a couple of months into our D/s, and these are the posts I have written back then:
Besides the training Master T put me through, he leads by example. Like I said, he’s an extremely patient person, and over the years I have taken over some of his ‘habits’ or simply followed his example.
Life teaches you to be patient
And when life happens, it doesn’t always have to go according to plan. Unexpected things can happen. An accident. The loss of a job. A family member gets ill, or you yourself come down with something. And when those unexpected things happen, we have to deal with it.
In the past years, quite a couple of unexpected things happened in my life. First Master T started having problems with his leg, which had him go through a slight depression, limited his ability even more than it already was, and those problems took four years before we were to the point that we could say it’s okay again. A couple of months after these problems started, my mom got ill, and she passed away just more than five months after we found out she had lung cancer.
The year after she passed, I went through a really bad time. And then, more recently, problems with my son (which are still ongoing), and a new health challenge for Master T. And just to top that off, this week my oldest tested positive for Covid, a day after she visited us for the afternoon. No, she wasn’t sick when she was with us. So we are currently in quarantine.
Like I said, life happens. Many of the above has also caused us to push D/s to the back burner, because other things were more important. It was never really gone, but very little happened. Talk about a patience training, right?
It’s worth the wait
I’m a more patient person now than I ever have been. Part of it might be because of aging, but I think many of it is because of following Master T’s example — whether it’s his character or the training — and because of the events of the past years. There was no way I could force things. With Master T in pain 24/7, there was no way I was going to ‘moan’ about D/s. I was far too concerned about him.
Oh, I did mention it a couple of times, but only when it came up in a conversation with Master T and we both agreed that we missed it. Also, him putting my night collar around my neck every night we went and go to bed, definitely helped with being patient.
And it’s worth the wait. The past months have been so good. No, we are in no way back to D/s, but he has that warning look in his eyes again when I tease him a bit. Besides that, our sex life has slowly started to pick up pace again. As said, Master T now has a new health challenge, so our sex life is back to nothing again, but the past months have shown me it will be back again.
Patience will get me there, as it definitely is a virtue!
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