I wrote about my pseudonym for the first time in 2012, and again in the post, How Real Am I?, which I linked to Food for Thought. It was about time I edited the older post, as it mentions people who are no longer blogging, or who I have distanced myself from.
‘Rebel’ was the first name I chose
‘Rebel’ is a name I have used for myself for as long as I can remember, especially with reference to something sexy. I considered myself a rebel ever since I fell pregnant at the too young age of 16. Just a tiny part of my rebellious nature came to the surface then, as happened several times later in my life.
The step to write as ‘Rebel’ was a small one, as was calling my blog Rebel’s Notes. Then came the moment that I considered writing a book. I had done it in the past, but under another pseudonym which was known to my family. I needed a pseudonym to go with my sexy stories, and writing just as ‘Rebel’ didn’t feel right.
Choosing a pseudonym
I tried for weeks to come up with an original name. Mostly Master T is brilliant with names, but back then he couldn’t come up with anything. I needed it to be first name and surname, and I still wanted Rebel somewhere in the name. I did some research and came across what could be used either as first or last name: Rebelle. This was with a French pronunciation.
I preferred ‘Rebelle’ as a surname, but had absolutely no idea what to use as a first name. I was christened with only one name so could not even use my second or third name, or variations of that. And there was just nothing I could do with my own name that sounded good with ‘Rebelle’ as last name.
Until someone suggested ‘Marie’ as first name. The moment I heard it, I was sold. Not only because it fitted ‘Rebelle’ like a glove, but because Marie fitted my given name perfectly too.
Why the need of a pseudonym?
I have written before that my family, friends and colleagues know I have a blog, and they also know they nature of my blog. In other words, they know I post sexy words and images, but that there’s more to my blog than only that. Many of them have asked for the link to my website, but that is one thing I have never done: give them the link.
I don’t want them to have the link, because this is my place where I share everything. I share my sexy thoughts, my naked images, my (mental) health, my relationship with Master T, and everything in between. Here I don’t have to filter my words for fear that sharing something might hurt them. On Facebook I have to do that, because they read along. Here I can be raw and naked, in all senses of the words.
That’s also the reason why I need to ‘hide’ behind a different name. It gives me the freedom to share anything I want to share. Sometimes it’s sexy or funny; other times it’s dark and depressing. It’s like a journal, locked with a key, but just a bit different.
‘Fine-tuning’ my pen name
Once I had a pseudonym, I happily started introducing myself as ‘Marie Rebelle’ to anyone who wanted to listen. I registered by that name on Facebook too, and in the months after that had to prove that’s my name. I couldn’t send them a passport, but Facebook allowed the profile, since I have been published under this name several times.
Eventually, I added an initial to my pen name. As said, the name ‘Marie’ perfectly fits my given name, which is the initial I added to the name. I became ‘Marie A. Rebelle’, and it just felt good. It was, and still is me.
© Rebel’s Notes
Image from Pixabay