Yesterday was the first of November and the first day of NaNoWriMo 2020. Now I have signed up for NaNoWriMo in the past and was successful with it a couple of times. However, in the past years with all that has been going on, most of my erotic stories have dried up. I know they will come back again once life has settled down, once my mind is in a good place.
When is saw the tweets of NaNoWriMo 2020 I started feeling the itch and desperately wanted to sign up again. But… without even the slightest idea for a story, how in the world could I even thing of participating.
Then my thoughts started…
Editing is taking sooooo long!
It is taking me ages to edit No Consent and get it ready for the blog. I can do about two parts and then I have to distance myself from it, since it’s just too much. Many of the feelings from back then surface, ranging from ‘how could I have been so f***ing stupid?’ to intense anger for the asshole ‘Fred’ was, and the ways he mentally and physically abused me.
But there’s another feeling that dominate my thoughts too: I want to be done with it. I want to have all of it edited and scheduled so I can just forget about it. Okay, I will never entirely forget, but at least once all the editing is done, I won’t be confronted with it every time I sit down to work on it.
So, I had an idea…
NaNoWriMo 2020… but then different
Since we are off from work for the majority of November, and because of Covid our country is in sem-lockdown (and I expect a full lockdown anytime soon), we can’t go anywhere. With no restaurants open, our holiday will be focused around relaxing at home, sleeping, watching movies, and of course I will be working away at my computer too. I have some work I want to do for Blogable, and some posts I want to write.
But, this thought crossed my mind: what if I just push through in the next three weeks and edit the last part of No Consent. It’s not fifty thousand words as is the norm for NaNoWriMo 2020, but about ten thousand less. I gathered that since it’s quite a psychological burden to work through the story, it will feel like fifty thousand words anyway.
So I decided to do NaNoWriMo 2020 my way… if I manage to edit all of what is left of No Consent, I will declare that I have won NaNo this year!
And yes, this means that you will be reading No Consent for a long time to come, as I only post two parts a week, and a rough guess tells me that forty thousand words roughly comes down to about 50 posts, so I guess you will be reading this story until way into the second half of 2021.
It’s good to be focused again, to have a writing goal, even though this goal is editing, not writing. But as every serious writer will know, you always get to the point where you have to edit your words. So even though NaNo is about writing, this year I am doing it my way, by declaring it a month of editing!
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Note added on 05.12.2020: I was going to do a new post and share my NaNo experience of this year, but have decided that adding a note here is enough. Having the focus of a deadline, and the deep desire to get done with editing No Consent for this blog, helped a great deal to win at this project. Close to the end of November, with a couple of days to spare, I completed the editing, and scheduled all posts ahead. The series will run up to the second half of April 2021, with a new episode every Tuesday and Saturday.