In the past couple of months things have changed in my life. Some circumstances have forced me to look long and hard at what and who I spend my energy on, and to re-assess my priorities. As I said to HL when I talked to him, I now look back on the past months, and feel like I have been done a favor.
After months of bad mental health, panic attacks that made me think I might die, I am stronger, and my life is finally more balanced than it has been for… years! When I start on something and want to make a success of it, I tend to push myself hard, and in doing so, it happens all to frequently that I go over my own boundaries. I take on more and more… and more… and then come to a point where I just keep on doing what I do without even thinking, or I break. This doesn’t only happen with all projects I start with, but it also happens at my work.
Something changed this year. Maybe it has to do with what happened in the past months, maybe it’s because of the state of the world, but I feel more balanced. I can finally set my priorities, do what I want to do, still maintaining my high productivity, and have more downtime than I had before.
This blog & my memes
One of my main priorities will always be my blog. In January 2021 this blog will be 11 years old, and it’s not something I will easily stop with. It has brought me in contact with some lovely people, some of whom we frequently see, others who I have almost daily contact with.
But, I wouldn’t be me if I didn’t have plans with this space, and with the Wicked Wednesday site.
Wicked Wednesday & 2 other memes
Observant people will have seen that I recently changed the theme on Wicked Wednesday. I had the same theme for years, so it really was time to change it. I have no plans at all to stop with Wicked Wednesday. The first prompt went live on 4 June 2012, so we are now into the ninth year of this meme, and still going strong (thanks to all of you participating!).
There are also two other memes on the Wicked Wednesday site — The Menopause Diaries and The Oral Sex Project. Both of these are ongoing memes, and will be there as long as the Wicked Wednesday site is life!
Like I said above, I am in the eleventh year of this space, and it will always be one of my priorities. I have started to recycle content, as I am just too proud of some posts to have them hidden away. More content will be recycled in the coming weeks/months, because remember, that’s good for the google rankings of older, popular posts.
Where up to a couple of months ago I was always writing, every evening, and pushing myself very hard because there should be a new post on my site tomorrow, nowadays I write one post on Saturday (mostly my Wicked Wednesday post for the next week) and then write the rest of the posts on Sundays. I always schedule ahead for one week. This works for me, and is something I intend do continue to do.
Something that has become one of my priorities is Blogable, a collaboration between Missy, May More and myself. The site offers a safe space for all bloggers to learn, share and benefit from our blogging experience, but also to share their own thoughts on forums, ask questions and connect with other bloggers. You have to become a member of the site, but this is entirely free!
You would say that I am trying to free up some time for myself so I have more time for myself, so why take up this project? Simple: because I love to help people, love to share what I have learned, and the two other ladies do too. I enjoy writing for Blogable, and have a lot to share still!
Of course I have made myself one of my priorities, which means I have more downtime than I did before. I have taken up crocheting, and have already finished a huge plaid, some potholders and a cat bed. I have some more things I want to make, like a cardigan each for both me and my daughter, and I am sure I will come up with more.
Besides the crocheting, I have also taken up researching my paternal family tree and find it incredibly interesting! There’s so much information to be found, from old photos to birth, marriage and death certificates, to how they lived their lives. I know it’s going to take me a LONG time before I am done with this, but that’s okay, because of the joy it brings me.
Maybe the most important of my priorities is my husband. Something happened in the past almost two months. I don’t know what. It might only be Master T’s health that’s getting better, but I think it also has to do with me having more time for myself; for being less pressured and stressed about having to create new content.
We seemed to have reconnected on many levels, and where our connection before wasn’t bad (even when we didn’t have sex) it seems more intimate now, and I really like that. Our sex life is back to being healthy again, and the reconnection on that level has done both of us so much good. So much good that we sleep much less hours on some nights than we did before!
Thankful and happy
I am thankful for being where I am now. Happy with how I am setting my priorities now. Vigilant not to retreat to where I was, but maintain this new, relaxed way of living, where I have time to hang on the couch, and watch a movie with Master T, without having to think of that one piece of writing I still have to do.
I am back to saying the words I have said so many times up to months ago: Life is good!
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