Comfortably nude

An image of me where I am half nude, and feeling comfortable with my nudity.

I grew up with a mom who lay out in our backyard in the sun, naked. However, I never saw my father in the nude. I never went out naked in the sun either, but when I was eighteen my aunt and uncle invited mom and me to visit them on the nudist farm where they always went. That was my first time I was between nudists, and I was the only one wearing a bathing suit! Imagine the looks I got! Fast forward a couple of years and you could frequently find me on the nude beach of Cape Town. There’s a sexy, yet funny story from back then I will share with you one of these days!

Scars

Back when I went to that nude beach, I already had a scar on my tummy from my hysterectomy, but it didn’t bother me at all that people saw it. A few years after that, I lost a huge amount of weight and had a tummy tuck done, which left me with a huge scar on my tummy, running from hipbone to hipbone. I always felt ashamed of this scar, and thought it would put people off.

When Master T and I started talking to each other and we realized there was more between us than just brief contact, I told him that I have to warn him. I went on to tell him about the scar on my tummy and that I hoped it wouldn’t put him off. I still remember his words as a reaction to mine:

We all have our flaws.

It must’ve been a week or two later that we met each other in person for the very first time. He picked me up at the station, and as he pulled up in front of the station, he got out and walked around the car to open the door for me. He limped. Like many people would think, the thought probably crossed my mind that he had hurt his foot or ankle. We drove off and he parked in a quiet street where we sat talking for hours. It was during that conversation that he referred to his ‘limp’ and told me that he’s an amputee.

His words immediately got a deeper meaning, and the first time he saw my scar, I wasn’t nearly as nervous as I otherwise might have been. However, the nerves always played up when we were with other people.

Nudity nowadays

Nowadays I am never nervous or shy when I am nude in front of Master T. With the current heatwave we are going through, at night we lie in bed, the covers pushed down. I am mostly entirely naked, but Master T only half, as he sleeps with a T-shirt and underpants every night of the year. However, his stump rests on the covers; his other leg straight. We are entirely comfortable with each other.

On summertime weekends, I love to stay naked as long as possible, especially when I am still busy upstairs. Unfortunately, due to the area we live in (close to a shopping center) and also to the huge windows we have front and back, it’s not possible to be naked downstairs. Also, during the week, when our daughter is home, I never walk around naked, as she prefers not to see me like that, and I respect it.

Nude in front of others

It’s been a while since we had dates with others but where in the beginning of every session I was a self-conscious about my nudity, it gradually changed during the session. Feeling comfortable with my nudity in front of others seem to have something to do with my level of arousal. I can safely say the hornier I am, the more I like to be on display; the more I want to be seen. I have this with Master T too. For instance, when he’s fingering me, it makes me even hornier when I see his eyes are on my cunt and his fingers.

I guess if we ever get back to playing with others again, it will be strange in the beginning to be nude with them again, but I trust my arousal will quickly change that.

Spa days

I have never been to a nude beach since I live in the Netherlands, but I have discovered wellness resorts. There are so many here, and you can spend the entire day there. There are saunas, bubble baths, swimming pools (inside and out), quiet rooms, restaurants and so much more. Most of them have a garden where you can lie in the sun. Some bubble baths are outside too, and there are several times a day that sauna infusions are scheduled. There is something for everyone, and the best of it all — you can walk around naked all day long (except in the restaurants).

On spa days I love to swim, to sit in a bubble bath or just lie out in the sun, and of course to have something to eat and drink too. When my friend and I go, we’re always there at 10am and never leave before 7pm. Sometimes we go to a sauna infusion, but mostly we can be found in the water.

Where this is not what spa days are about, I never mind when people look, and have frequently ‘caught’ some — both men and women — glancing at my piercings (genital too) or studying my tattoos. I love that, and on a spa day, I never seem to mind about my scar, probably because there’s no intimacy involved.

Comfortably nude

I think I can safely say that nowadays I am quite comfortable with my own nudity. And yes, one thing I know is that Master T prefers to see me naked… something about it being easier to pinch my nipples?!

© Rebel’s Notes



13 thoughts on “Comfortably nude

  1. “I never saw my father in the nude.” is a book I think – I was nude around my kids a lot – but their dad wasn’t and then I was really confused when they started being self-conscious and covering up if i walked in their bedrooms – my eldst is like me now and it wouldn’t bother her but my youngest has body issues still – the ED and her view of the world. I pray she will resolve this
    I don’t blame Mr T for preferring you naked 😉
    May xx

    1. I will pray with you that your youngest can resolve her body issues. Funnily enough I was never nude around my kids, not even when they were younger, as I felt too self-conscious with my own body. Had they been small now, with my feeling confident in my own body, I might have been nude around them more 🙂 xox

  2. Nudity and that personality of yours are certainly a perfect combination! I think we get to stage in life where we wish we looked better and that scars and broken parts could be fixed; yet we accept who we are externally and focus on the feeling inside the mind that make us feel 18 again! Love you tale of meeting Master T!

    1. You make me blush, HL! You are so very right about the way things change as we grow older. I also think we come to a stage where we realize we can just as well accept all our flaws, as we can’t change them anymore. It’s really freeing 🙂

  3. A great post Marie and I love that you are so relaxed and comfortable with your own nudity. I agree with you about it creating or being part of the intimacy and this is something that has been a big part of things for me ❤️

    1. I seem to be much more comfortable with my nudity every day now than I have been for the majority of my life, and it’s actually very freeing ❤

  4. I really need to stop-by more often. I love hearing about your life. It’s not sugarcoated, just the honest, real, Marie with all the perfect imperfections. Maybe one day I even get to pinch your nipples – with permission. xoxo

    1. I am sure Master T will grant you permission in a flash! And to be honest, I like the idea of you pinching my nipples, and using the crop too… you know, for those stingy feelings 😉 xox

  5. I love this honest and frank admission marie.
    Although after the last sentence it took me awhile before I could think about anything besides your nipples ha ha. I can’t speak for every guy but I see things like scar’s , extra weight or saggy breasts as attractive medalions of a ‘real’ woman who has a ‘life’.
    Love Howie?

    1. My husband constantly tells me I am perfect just the way I am, with my scars and extra weight. I think us women are just too hard on ourselves at times. Thanks for your nice comment, Howie 🙂

  6. Feeling comfort naked around others is very freeing. Especially the thought of it during play, whilst other eyes are watching you. Would love to hear more when you do.

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