Seriously… exactly two years ago (minus one day) I wrote LCHF #18. Those really were ‘famous last words’!
In the past three years, since February 2017, when my mom was hospitalized for the first time, I have not paid any attention to what I eat. In fact, I turned to sweet things to eat away my grief. Muffins and chocolates and other sweets. I started eating so all the carbs again, even though I knew I shouldn’t because of my fructose intolerance and the tummy ache it causes. As a result of this I gained back all the weight I had lost in the last months of 2016.
For more than a year now I knew I had to do something. I tried to get back to #LCHF so many times, and I just didn’t succeed. I just wasn’t in the right frame of mind to get on with it. I kept on slipping back into my bad habits.
Then came the idea to start a meme to hold me accountable for what I eat, drink and how I exercise (which I don’t at all at this moment). I thought about starting a separate site for it, but because Julie of Master’s Pleasing Bitch has been sharing posts about her health, food and fitness, Towards the end of November 2019, I asked her whether she might want to start something like this. She did, and I love what she has created.
Now back then I also wanted to start watching what I eat and exercise more (go out on walks) but just like before I failed in all my intentions.
Up to now.
This is NOT a New Year’s resolution, but maybe the new year has given me new energy to start this. I constantly tell myself (and I have been doing this for months!): Just watch, I will get back to the same weight I was at the beginning of 2017. I have done it before, I can do it again.
But I just never took the step. During this week I told myself that only I can do this, and if I don’t get started with it now, I should just put the thought out of my head entirely and accept that I will always be overweight. I don’t want to accept this, because frankly, it just doesn’t feel good (no offense to others who have accepted their overweight). My bra irritates me, some of my favorite knickers always roll down over the rounding of my stomach and there are clothes I really want to wear, but I look like a Michelin advert if I squeeze myself into it now.
So, on the Saturday of this week, out on our regular shopping trip, I bought some foods I will need to get back on track with eating the #LCHF way. I also started this post, as yes, I am planning to blog about this, and this time I am planning to get it right.
On Sunday I was planning to take photos of myself, to document my progress as I did before, but all I did was step onto the scale. The weather was just to gray and gloomy to have good light for the photos. I entered my weight on MyFitnessPal (MFP) and on Wednesday I hope for better weather to take the photos, and my measurements, which of course I will register too.
I don’t mind if I take all of 2020 to get to a weight at which I feel comfortable, and once I do, I am planning to stay there. And of course, I am also planning to keep track of my progress on my blog, just like I did before, because it seems to keep me focused.
Monday: I knew I was going to get questions at my work when I say I only want tea, and no more special coffees from the machine, and I did. Even more so when I filled my water bottle for the second time. I just told them that it’s time I start watching what I eat again, because of my tummy ache. I am not ready to tell my colleagues I am trying to lose weight. Of course I thought of that coffee a lot, because damn, it’s so good, but it’s also filled with carbs!
Numbers: 1187 calories (40g carbs – 14% / 86g fat – 67% / 57g protein – 19%)
Tuesday: As with every first Tuesday of the month the ladies ordered snacks and sat around me eating fries, but I kept it to one meaty snack which is very low in carbs.
Numbers: 1212 calories (20g carbs – 6% / 100g fat – 74% / 60g protein – 20%)
Wednesday: A day at home, which means I eat a lot different than on working days. I ate breakfast after noon, and then dinner in the evening. At work I also drink a lot more water than at home, so I didn’t drink any on this day, but I did drink a lot of tea. On this day I also took profile images to track my progress. I think I will do this every four weeks.
Numbers: 1165 calories (16g carbs – 5% / 92g fat – 70% / 72g protein – 25%)
Thursday: Another working day, and I almost drank cup a soup during lunch, remembering just in time to check the carbs. I declined, and felt quite proud of myself.
Numbers: 1067 calories (13g carbs – 5% / 85g fat – 71% / 66g protein – 24%)
Friday: A very bad day. All because, when we were invited to have birthday cake with a colleague, I had no idea how to say I don’t want, without revealing that I am trying to lose weight again. I don’t want my colleagues to know. I have my reasons for it. Only AFTER I have eaten a delicious piece of cake, and my tummy started aching I realized I should’ve given them the same reason I did when I told them from now on I am only drinking tea, and not the cappuccino I did for so long: I’m cutting back because of my fructose intolerance. Because I was so disappointed with myself the day got worse. I ate a banana late in the afternoon (tummy ache), drank a glass of wine and even had two pieces of chocolate. To counter that, I decided to have a ‘fasting day’ on Saturday.
Numbers: 1480 calories (100g carbs – 28% / 83g fat – 53% / 69g protein – 19%)
Saturday: A day of fasting. I drank tea and coke zero and only at 4pm in the afternoon ate for the first time. Saturdays are always my day when I allow myself to eat the ‘wrong’ things. So, when we went out to meet a friend, I had two coffees (with lots of milk) but with dinner I made the right choices and ate mainly meat, only to have a coffee again after dinner. And a glass of wine with dinner, and one when we got home. Oh and, I just couldn’t help myself this morning, so I got on the scale. There was a huge smile on my face when I saw the result: my weight was down with 2.2kg. I know this is mainly fluids, but damn, it gives a boost!
Numbers: 1023 calories (56g carbs – 30% / 21g fat – 25% / 83g protein – 45%)
Sunday: This was a day in Amsterdam with my daughter, and as usual we started it off with coffee and cake (which I regretted, not for the cake but because it was cold and dry), and then had lunch which was steak with gravy and bread. Yes, I had carbs, but at the same time I had walked 12000 steps, which I think was good. I didn’t feel as guilty today as I did on Friday. And there’s a whole new week starting to do it better!
Numbers: 1190 calories (108g carbs – 36% / 65g fat – 49% / 44g protein – 15%)
To be continued… #LCHF 20: Finally!
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