Music was my first love
And it will be my last.
Music of the future
And music of the past.
To live without my music
Would be impossible to do.
In this world of troubles,
My music pulls me through.
Lyrics from Music by John Miles
I have written about my favorite music before, but not about the music that calms me down, or which I like to listen to totally on my own. Now there was a time when I loved to put on huge earphones, lie on my back on the floor and just enjoy the music only I could hear. I have a huge variety of music I love to listen to, but for this post I am going to focus on a handful of songs that have a special meaning for me, and where I seem to disappear from the now, and travel back in time.
Paint your wagon – They call the wind Mariah
Remember the old 78 speed vinyl LP’s from way back when? My parents had a lot of those, and one of my favorites (and theirs) was the Paint your wagon album. There are some great songs on there, but ‘They call the wind Mariah’ definitely is my favorite of them all. Some years ago Master T and I had a music night, and he wanted to surprise me by playing this song. It was in a time when I had to come to terms with the fact that my father has more or less pushed me out of his life (things are still shaky but better) and it caused me to burst out in tears, and I couldn’t stop anymore. A couple of weeks ago Master T wanted play the song again, but he was afraid he might upset me again, so he waited for me to go to bed. I was in bed when I heard the song (he turned the sound up some), and I smiled when good memories came flooding back, and also because I realized that I can listen to the song again without sad tears.
Roger Waters – The Pros and Cons of Hitchhiking
I have referred to myself as a rock chic before, and where this is not actually rock music, it is made by a rock musician and he was part of Pink Floyd. My first husband introduced me to The Pros and Cons of Hitchhiking, and this is the one album which I love, love, love to listen to with earphones on. It transports me to a totally different world, and I just love it. There is something magical about this album, and if you ask me what it is, I will not be able to explain it in words. I believe this also is something you either love or hate – there just isn’t anything in between.
Helmut Lotti – African Sunrise
Do you know Helmut Lotti? Many people don’t. He’s a Belgian singer who made a couple of albums with classical music (I have them all) and then he made one called ‘Out of Africa’. There are some songs from my childhood on there, but if there is one song that can totally make me feel my roots, it’s African Sunrise. There’s a beat in the song that expresses the liveliness of the country, of the beautiful place where I grew up, a place I would never want to live again, but also a place that will forever be in my heart. Africa always be part of my core.
My band recorder
Back in my teens I owned a band recorder, but never used it with earphones. I adapted the habit of listening to three songs and fall asleep while I did so. My band recorder was always right next to my pillow and the sound was so low that literally only I could hear it. Up to today I am still fond of the three songs I used to listen back then:
- Ti Amo by Laura Branigan
- I wanna know what love is by Foreigner
- Forever Young by Alphaville
Sometimes the song by Alphaville plays on the radio, but I hardly ever hear the other two on the radio, and I think it’s time I listen to those songs again!
(Insert: And seriously, only minutes ago I typed the above, and now the Foreigner song is playing on the radio. We only started listening to the ‘oldies’ station this week! What a coincidence! Can you imagine the smile on my face now? And, sitting here, while it’s all quiet around me, listening to the song now is like I am a teenager lying in my bed again…)
There’s another kind of music that can easily soothe me to sleep, and that’s the music of nature. I love to be in my bed during a good thunderstorm, while the loud rumbling and bright flashes soothe me to sleep. There was a time that I was afraid of heavy weather, and I have no idea when the changed came, but nowadays I really love the sounds of nature.
Where the world might not be entirely ‘off’ when I listen to the songs I have mentioned, all of these songs have a special meaning to me, or make me feel something special when I listen to them. They transport me back to happy times, and at the same time remind me of the happiness I have today.
© Rebel’s Notes