Someone once told me that I talk a lot, but I don’t say the things that I really need to say. I was offended in the moment, but when I thought about it, I realized that they were right: I hide the things I should really talk about. Those of you that read all or most posts on my blog will know that I have written so many times that I want to talk to Master T about important things, about our relationship, about how he sees the future, especially our sexual and fun future. I never have the guts to just start about it, always taking into account that he might not be in the mood, that he is in pain, that it’s not the right moment, or because I feel guilty for wanting something for myself. My father made me grow up with guilt, but that’s a story for another time. Thing is, I seem to silence myself because I feel guilty for wanting something.
I am not the only one doing this. There are others too, and not all of us have the same reasons for keeping quiet — some may have the same as me (guilt), others may fear the reaction of the person they have to talk to, and yet again others might be manipulated into not talking. But you know what? We should just talk. We should not feel guilty about it. Should not fear the reaction. Should not be manipulated. We should just talk, because we deserve to speak about our needs and our wants and the things we find important in life, as life is just to short not to. And yes, I am talking as much to myself as I am talking to you.
It’s time to speak up!
(And I have been told that I can talk whenever I want, that I am allowed to, so I should do it. And I will!)
I wish I could have a night like my beautiful wife, Hyacinth recently had. I read Password Level achieved and by the end I was squirming, and longing for a LONG sex session!
A post that totally intrigued me is Why I’m Okay With Consensual Non-Monogamy in Our D/s Relationship by Kayla Lords. There’s information and thoughts in this post that confirmed some things I know about myself, and things I have been wondering about regarding consensual non-monogamy.
Her photography is always stunning, but when I read Matching plugs by Missy, I realized how damn good her writing is too. This is SO hot!
This post, If it was easy by Molly Moore, touched my heart, as I know from past experiences how it feels when you start censoring yourself and come to a place where you feel you want to speak out, but you are afraid to hurt those around you.
- Midnight at the Oasis by Brigit Delaney — this low key image is absolutely perfect, showing just enough to make you want to see more.
- Walking the walk by Alethea Hunt — I am a sucker for beautiful rope work, but it’s actually the last of the three images that really caught my attention. There is just something so beautiful about it.
- Cheeky Peek by Jayne Renault — this is indeed cheeky, and so sexy!
- Soft is Strong by Violet Fawkes — I just have to feature Violet here again! She has a brilliant eye for beautiful photography, and this image IS beautiful!
Lingerie Is For Everyone
- Masturbation May and Life by J. Lynn — This is such a ‘simple’ image, but when you look closer, the hand in her pants definitely says that there is nothing simple about this.
- Find Your Own Sword by Floss — I love that Floss’ panties and her wand massager has the same color, and love the glimpse of her beautiful tattoos.
Prompts are a great way to inspire you to write a new post, and you can also combine two prompts (or three) if you want.
These are the ones currently running:
|Meme||Prompt||Date(s) to link|
|Masturbation Monday||Week 245 (Purple’s Gem)||10 to 14 May 2019|
|Wicked Wednesday||Prompt #363: Friendship||11 to 16 May 2019|
|Food for Thought Friday||#98 – Spread A Little Love||10 to 16 May 2019|
|Friday Flash||#51 — Movie Poster||5 to 12 May 2019|
|Sinful Sunday||Prompt to follow||2 June 2019|
|Kink of the week||Outdoor Sex||1 – 16 May 2019|
|Tell Me About…||#7: Spanking||28 April to 11 May 2019|
|Erotic Journal Challenge||Prompt #17: Never Again||4 to 12 May 2019|
|Sex Blogger for Mental Health||Week 17 – Gaslighting & Ghosting||5 to 12 May 2019|
|Elust #119||Elust submissions||1 to 8 June 2019|
Prompt 362 for Wicked Wednesday was ‘Unmentionable’ for which 32 posts were linked. The top 3 was done by E.L. Byrne and she chose:
- Never mention the unmentionable by Submissy
- Unmentionable by Toy for Sir
- An Intro to Ethical Cum Tributes ft. Leona de Lioness by MxNillin
More memes — also those without prompts — can be found here. And, did you know that it’s perfectly okay to combine memes? Just make sure you have the buttons of those you link to in your post!
In the past week two things happened on the Smut Marathon site. Firstly the results of the fourth round of the marathon has been put online, and secondly, we have finally announced the first sponsor for this year’s marathon. The rest of the sponsors are to follow soon, one by one!
Tips & tricks
Kayla Lords wrote What I Learned Writing 2 Million Words as a Freelancer on The Smutlancer website, and when you read it, you can learn a lot from her.
Last but not least
To get back to the intro of this post, this week once again I was reminded of how much I love Master T. In one of our frequent one-liner emails that I start every morning and he ends every afternoon, I mentioned that I am a bit frustrated, and he said that everything will be okay. I told him that this phrase ‘everything will be okay’ seems to close the door for me to talk about important things, and he assured me that the door wasn’t closed. I believe every word he has said, not because he has written them to me, but because of how friendly and loving he was towards me since them. The door indeed is open. Now all I have to do is TALK!
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