#Storyin12 (February 2019)

#Storyin12

I will be totally honest: February 2019 kicked my ass.

Normally, February is a good month for me. It’s my birthday on the 25th and where I don’t celebrate it with a party every year, I do like it to be acknowledged, and I do see it as my special day. Seriously, 25 is not my lucky number for nothing.

However, this year February was not a good month.

About ten days before my birthday I started noticing that I was getting cranky. I thought this was because I found it difficult to keep up with all the February Photofest posts that poured into my inbox, but a couple of days later I had to admit that it wasn’t this. No, it was because I missed my mom so much, and the closer my birthday came, the more intense I missed her, and the harder I found it to keep up with February Photofest AND the entries of the Smut Marathon. It was really hard, and somewhere in all this I fell off the #Storyin12 wagon.

For February I wanted to try something different. I wanted to start telling a story with the prompt for day 1 and then continue it with every next prompt. I managed that up to about day 10, and then later in the month I caught up on several of the prompts and then I just gave up. I just couldn’t go on.

This is what I came up with…

The stories

1. Pearls
Turning the string of pearls around her finger, she watched him. Unobserved.

2. Coffee
Absentmindedly he drank from the disposable coffee cup, reading the morning paper.

3. Quietly
Each time he quietly turned the page, she noticed his strong hands.

4. Retirement
Ever since her retirement she drank her coffee here; what about him?

5. Airport
An airport announcement interrupted their business; then only they saw each other.

6. Story
Their eyes stayed locked; more than briefly. What’s your story, she wondered.

7. Child
Blushing, with a child’s shyness, she looked back down at her coffee.

8. Apple
She peeked.
On his phone – apple clearly visible – his face was serious.

9. Survive
“… survive…” the only word she caught. He hung up, looked at her.

10. Tomorrow
“Will you be here tomorrow?” he asked, smiling, standing at her table.

11. Rain
“It depends whether it rains,” she said. Disappointment showed in his eyes.

12. Tears
Why did her remark remind him of tears? Because he was disappointed?

13. Unsavory
His sudden unsavory desire to spend more time with her, surprised him.

14. Nurse
“I need to go,” he said, “the nurse is waiting.”
He disappeared.

15. Ivy
Staring at the fake ivy, her mind was filled with his presence.

16. Radio
A song on the radio reminded her of his voice, warming her.

The story I saw in front of me was two older people who happened to sit at the same airport coffee corner every morning, secretly eyeing each other and then of course finally starting to talk to each other. But, with my head not in the game, it just didn’t work the way I hoped it would.

What’s next?

I have decided to sit out of #Storyin12 for a little while. I do want to return to it, but I first need to get into a new blogging rhythm and to get my head back in the space it was in before February happened. I have noticed some darker thoughts happening again, and think I just might have overloaded myself with work some, so self care at this moment is much needed.

I will, however, not stop writing. I can’t. I am utterly incapable of doing so. It might just be that super-short fiction is not my thing.

© Rebel’s Notes

#Storyin12

2 thoughts on “#Storyin12 (February 2019)

  1. I really like the story you were building here. This last month or so has bern really tough for me too and so story in 12 is something I just dip into if i feel the urge. It is often a nice place to empty my brain of everything else just for a few minutes

  2. You’re amazing for sticking to it with allll the stuff you’ve got going. Super impressed. I like what you attempted to do with your story.

    Take care of yourself. Your mental health is important

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