The prompt for this week’s Wicked Wednesday is ‘erotic photo’, and specifically with the question: <em>If I was taking an erotic photograph of you, I would ask you to…</em>
Now I will hardly ever be the one holding the camera to take an erotic photo of someone else, and even if I would happen to find myself in such a position, I will not be able to tell the person to ‘do this’ or ‘do that’. The same goes for being the subject of an erotic photo shoot. I will barely be able to tell you what I want, but will leave it to you to tell me to turn this way, that way or to show you this or that.
Many times when Master T was still the one taking my photos (and I hope he will be again one day), he would tell me to just move and he would take the photos. Oh god, the moment I knew he wanted me to decide what kind of photos I wanted, or me to pose for him and he would snap away, my mind went blank. It was like I froze, not knowing what my next move should be. Granted, it got a bit easier as we settled into our life together, but it never got to the point where I could just ‘perform’ for him to snap images. I don’t think it ever will, and if we get back to him being the photographer and me being the model, we might have to get ‘used’ to this dynamic again. I know I will, and why? I can’t give you an explanation for that.
In the meantime of course I have embarked on my self photography journey, and where it is a pain in the bum to set everything up, I love doing this, being the model and the photographer. It’s definitely not easy, as sometimes a shot has to be done over and over again and I am limited for space, but up to now I am quite happy with what I have created. And soon, sooner maybe than I thought, the entire attic of our house will be my photo studio. Then I will not have to get all equipment set up anymore before I do a self photo shoot, but I will just be able to walk up with my camera and start snapping away. I can’t tell you how much I am looking forward to have a permanent place for photography, and secretly hope it sparks Master T to start taking photos of me again. I mean, we can set up an entire studio with lights and backgrounds and all the stuff we have bought in the past two years. I really look forward to it!
I have always been an exhibitionist and long before the first nude photo was taken of me at the age of 18 (I begged a cousin to do it and up to today it’s our secret), I had been exposing myself to the outside world. I remember that as a girl of barely ten, I used to dress up and then in the far corner of the garden, behind a wall where no one could see me, I would pull my panties to the side to expose myself to… yes, to who? I know it gave me a thrill, but it was always over quickly and I went back to play. Barely four years later I would expose myself in exactly the same way, but that was at the request of our neighbor boy, and I loved that he watched.
I never did anything with that first set of photos, but when digital photography became a thing, I could hardly wait to get a camera and take photos of myself. I still had no place to show them off, but I loved looking at them. And then I discovered Redclouds, and chats, and eventually all those roads lead to me starting a blog and eventually going self hosted where I can share my erotic photos to my heart’s content.
And you know what, I will keep on sharing for as long as I want to, even when I get old and wrinkled, because the older I get, the more I love and accept my body, am thankful for all it has brought me and is still bringing me!
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