Photographer and Model

The prompt for this week’s Wicked Wednesday is ‘erotic photo’, and specifically with the question: <em>If I was taking an erotic photograph of you, I would ask you to…</em>

Now I will hardly ever be the one holding the camera to take an erotic photo of someone else, and even if I would happen to find myself in such a position, I will not be able to tell the person to ‘do this’ or ‘do that’. The same goes for being the subject of an erotic photo shoot. I will barely be able to tell you what I want, but will leave it to you to tell me to turn this way, that way or to show you this or that.

Many times when Master T was still the one taking my photos (and I hope he will be again one day), he would tell me to just move and he would take the photos. Oh god, the moment I knew he wanted me to decide what kind of photos I wanted, or me to pose for him and he would snap away, my mind went blank. It was like I froze, not knowing what my next move should be. Granted, it got a bit easier as we settled into our life together, but it never got to the point where I could just ‘perform’ for him to snap images. I don’t think it ever will, and if we get back to him being the photographer and me being the model, we might have to get ‘used’ to this dynamic again. I know I will, and why? I can’t give you an explanation for that.

In the meantime of course I have embarked on my self photography journey, and where it is a pain in the bum to set everything up, I love doing this, being the model and the photographer. It’s definitely not easy, as sometimes a shot has to be done over and over again and I am limited for space, but up to now I am quite happy with what I have created. And soon, sooner maybe than I thought, the entire attic of our house will be my photo studio. Then I will not have to get all equipment set up anymore before I do a self photo shoot, but I will just be able to walk up with my camera and start snapping away. I can’t tell you how much I am looking forward to have a permanent place for photography, and secretly hope it sparks Master T to start taking photos of me again. I mean, we can set up an entire studio with lights and backgrounds and all the stuff we have bought in the past two years. I really look forward to it!

I have always been an exhibitionist and long before the first nude photo was taken of me at the age of 18 (I begged a cousin to do it and up to today it’s our secret), I had been exposing myself to the outside world. I remember that as a girl of barely ten, I used to dress up and then in the far corner of the garden, behind a wall where no one could see me, I would pull my panties to the side to expose myself to… yes, to who? I know it gave me a thrill, but it was always over quickly and I went back to play. Barely four years later I would expose myself in exactly the same way, but that was at the request of our neighbor boy, and I loved that he watched.

I never did anything with that first set of photos, but when digital photography became a thing, I could hardly wait to get a camera and take photos of myself. I still had no place to show them off, but I loved looking at them. And then I discovered Redclouds, and chats, and eventually all those roads lead to me starting a blog and eventually going self hosted where I can share my erotic photos to my heart’s content.

And you know what, I will keep on sharing for as long as I want to, even when I get old and wrinkled, because the older I get, the more I love and accept my body, am thankful for all it has brought me and is still bringing me!

me and my nikon camera
Aligning a shot as photographer, before jumping in front of the camera as model…

© Rebel’s Notes

Wicked Wednesday
February Photofest 2018

13 thoughts on “Photographer and Model

  1. Love this image! I enjoy it when JB takes my picture, but I usually have such a clear image of what I want, I prefer it when I take the picture. Unfortunately, I’m no photographer and only use my phone for selfies.

  2. I love that shot of you being the photographer. As you know I take all my own pictures. It has been the most amazing part of blogging for me…learning how to do it and also learning my body along the way

    Molly

  3. Great photo and of course, you rite from the heart in a way that is easy to relate to. TFS!! I seem to take most of my naked selfies in the tub! LOL (Crime of opportunity I guess!)

  4. Rebel, I love this photo and how we can see so much detail of tattoo, hair, skin, jewelry, and yet it leaves some things a mystery as well. Your writing here is very relatable too, an honest look at the ways that one’s relationship to erotic photography can change (and also remain consistent!) over the years. I really enjoyed reading it, and it got me thinking back to my own early erotic photos … which I long ago burned.

  5. I simply LOVE your last sentence Marie – “because the older I get, the more I love and accept my body, am thankful for all it has brought me and is still bringing me!”

    Totally agree . . . and your photos not only bring joy to yourself, but to all of us as well !!!

    Xxx – K

  6. I, too, do most of my own photos, and it can be a pain in the ass. I usually take dozens of shots just to find one I like. I also, like you, strigger with others taking photos of me. I clam up and feel self-conscious. It would be loverly to have a friend here that I could team up with for erotic photography.

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