Thank you for allowing me to share my thoughts about aspects of our relationship, the fascination I have for Histoire d’O and the similarities between the two. I frequently call the movie my ‘training video’. Each time I see it, I discover more aspects of my submissive self.
Continued from… The Story of O (21) – Marked
We have come to the end of my series where I have taken scenes from HIstoire d’O to look at my own D/s relationship and the many similarities there are. I have never seen or heard of the movie before I met Master T, but he was definitely a fan of it. He was also the one who lead me down the path to a formal D/s relationship, without actually saying it. He just allowed me to understand what was deep inside me all the time. He unlocked it, allowed it to surface, nurtured it.
From the moment we had made our D/s commitment, we walked our own path. Our D/s is very much a part of our daily lives. It’s always there, always present, but our every day lives are more important than it. Our marriage, our family, even our work lives come before our D/s. Our D/s enhances everything else. It is part of who we are, part of our relationship, but it doesn’t define it.
I have written most of my ‘Story of O’ series during a time where we had very little D/s interaction. There were nights where I didn’t wear my night collar, but that didn’t mean our D/s was gone. Not once had Master T spanked or whipped me, or even pinched my nipples (except sometimes to tease) but this didn’t mean our D/s had somehow stopped. It only meant that life happened, that we first took care of things that are important.
(Note: The last paragraph was written somewhere in 2017, and only now I am posting this. However, reading through this nothing has changed. We still have little D/s interaction and it’s been ages since I had been spanked. Something that has changed a little is that Master T is back to pinching my nipples, even though it’s not a weekly thing. I now sleep with my night collar most of the nights, and Master T corrects me when I do something, like absentmindedly crossing my legs. Our D/s might not be as active as it once was, but it’s definitely not gone.)
Our D/s was very much part of us before we made our formal commitment, and it will always be part of us, because dominance is part of Master T’s core personality as much as submission is part of mine.
I enjoyed doing these series, looking at our relationship and the many similarities with Histoire d’O, which I still call my ‘training movie’. Even during the downtime of our D/s, where little other is happening than Master T putting my sleep collar around my neck at night, our D/s is still strong and all these posts and thoughts still apply.
The posts I have done for this series are as follows:
- Introduction
- Crossing Legs
- Always There
- Tears
- To Be Used
- Sweet Terror
- Obey
- Giving & Wanting
- Ownership
- Eyes
- Liberating
- Belonging
- I’ll Do As You Say
- Examining
- The Dream
- An Alibi
- Yours
- Give Yourself
- Free Will
- Belonging
- Marked
I hope you had enjoyed reading it as much as I did writing it!
THE END
© Rebel’s Notes
I’m a real late comer to this entire series, but it makes for a fascinating insight into the relation you have with Master T. I love the balance between being a strong woman in every respect, in the knowledge that you belong to Master T. It’s a outlet where he is in charge, you still have a say if you don’t want something (like the outer labia rings), that provides strength. You debunk the myth that the s in a D/s relationship is somehow weak. From the (relatively) little experience I have, for a D/s relationship to work, both partners need to have confidence, strength, and trust in each other. A wonderful read!
These posts were all very interesting to learn more about how you view your relationship. TFS!
I can relate to this so much. And even though you’re not back to everything, I hope it’s nice to have some outward signs of your D/s back.
Aww. I’m sorry this series is over!