Allow me to talk about aspects of our relationship, the fascination I have for Histoire d’O and the similarities between the two. I frequently call the movie my ‘training video’. Each time I see it, I discover more aspects of my submissive self.
Continued from… The Story of O (20) – Belonging
Sir Stephen wants you to carry the same rings.
Once they’re on, they can’t come off.
But for you there will be more.
That’s why Sir Stephen wants you marked otherwise.
In the movie, Histoire d’O, one of the women show O her genital rings, which was a sign of Ownership. Sir Stephen wanted O to have the same rings, but more importantly, he wanted to have O branded. Branded in the real sense of the word: his mark burned into her skin forever. O had the opportunity to walk away, but she chose to be branded.
As many of you know, I have five genital piercings. All of them I have gotten because I wanted them, but after Master T has told me how much he would like me to have them. The first was done the day after I moved in with Master T, but this was also after he had told me for more than a year how lovely it would be to have me pierced. Back then our D/s did not exist yet (not formally anyway) and I have never thought about the piercing as a sign of ownership. It was only much later that the thought occurred to me.
I also have two sets of inner labia piercings, as Master T really wanted me pierced more. Those two sets were done because I find it intriguing, but also as part of Master T claiming me as his. It is not like I will have every piercing done that Master T ‘suggests’. For instance, he would love me to have my outer labia pierced too, but I don’t want that. Part of why I don’t want it has to do with practicalities (shaving/waxing) and part of it with the fact that I like my cunt just the way it is and I don’t want it scarred anymore. It has been scarred by a cosmetic operation, as the tubes for the drains entered through the tissue on my mound. Unfortunately, my body makes ugly scars and this is a huge reason why I don’t want my outer labia pierced. Master T had been talking about another clitoral piercing…
We have also talked about being branded, but there is no way I would want to be branded the way O has been. I have, however, been branded. Not with a mark by Master T, but I did have it done with his consent. I chose for a butterfly and had it done at an Eroticon demonstration. This has not been done to show Master T’s ownership over me, but has been done because I wanted the experience. I loved it! The butterfly is still partly visible, but my most recent tattoo now covers most of it.
My piercings are, unlike those of O, removable. There comes a day where I will remove them (not anytime soon if I can help it) but that will not make me feel like I am less Master T’s than I am while wearing them. In the end, submission to Master T is something that is in me, something I do because I want to do it and I don’t need any outward signs and symbols to confirm that I am in fact submitting to him.
Still, I fucking love the sight (and feel) of my genital piercings!
To be continued… The Story of O (22) – Conclusion
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