There was a time when I said that I would never want to be dominated by another woman. But as goes with many things in life: never say never.
Also, once the little seed has been planted to think about it, it has slowly germinated, but has never broken the ground to show its young green leaves. I think that has to do with two things. One is the fact that we don’t know any dominant women with whom we could try whether female domination will really be for me. The other obviously is because we are not actively doing anything in the line of D/s, except for me sleeping with my night collar and Master T sometimes having to warn me when I absentmindedly cross my legs.
Then came the announcement of the current topic of KOTW and suddenly my thoughts are back to how it would be to be dominated by a woman.
Would it have to be someone I don’t know? Someone who I first have to get to know, partly through play and partly not? How would it be if it’s someone I know? Will I be able to make the switch in my thinking from seeing her as a friend, to seeing her as the person dominating me?
How would it be if a woman hurts me? Will it hurt more than when Master T does it, or not? I actually think I know the answer, as some years ago Rose left some marks on me with a carpet beater and it hurt as much as it would’ve hurt had Master T been holding the implement.
But that night was about trying out her implements, not about her dominating me.
Would I want a woman to give me orders? Would I be able to have a connection to a woman the same way I have with Master T? Would I want a woman to dominate me together with Master T?
I am bisexual, and just like with men, when there’s a click between me and the woman, everything is possible. I never take the lead when something sexy is about to happen. When I have to think about what I should do next, absolutely nothing comes to mind. It’s as if I go totally blank. I can imagine myself in a situation where I am with a dominant woman, and she takes the lead; tells me to lick her, to kiss her, to finger her, and that either before or after she hurts me.
I still have a lot of questions, but many of these can only be answered after sharing an experience with a dominant woman. I have moved away from saying ‘never’ to thinking ‘maybe one day’ or ‘if only for one experience’. Because yes, I would love to try this at least once, being dominated by a woman.
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