Allow me to talk about aspects of our relationship, the fascination I have for Histoire d’O and the similarities between the two. I frequently call the movie my ‘training video’. Each time I see it, I discover more aspects of my submissive self.
Continued from… The Story of O (17) – Yours
Remember what I have said in a previous post, about Master T always taking into account whether there is a click between and any man we meet for sexy fun?
I know there might come a day where he decides that no matter what my opinion is of a man, I should submit and allow that man to fuck me. Give myself in the way he wants me to give myself. I have no idea if I will be able to do so, but I am willing to trust his judgment, no matter what my opinion of the man is. If he trust the man in question enough to allow him to fuck me, I will accept that.
I keep on asking myself how I would react if it is someone I don’t really want to have sex with. What if Master T decides such a man should fuck me? Will I be able to give myself the way he expects me to do? Will I be able t just surrender and allow the man to fuck me, because Master T wants it? Will my own horniness take over? Will I, when I close my eyes, be able to concentrate only on the sensations, or will I always keep in mind that I am touched by a man I didn’t want to fuck?
I have no idea how I would react, but I think I will just surrender to all the sensations. I will know that I am pleasing my owner, pleasing Master T, I would give myself because he wants me to do so. I would forget who is fingering or fucking me and only think if Master T, thinking about how much he enjoys it when someone else fucks me, uses me. Thinking of that will totally change the sensations I feel and might even make me forgte just who is fucking me. Or, I might warm to the person, whether I had a click with him at first or not.
There is just something about giving yourself ti someone that breaks down all barriers. Knowing Master T approves of the person and trusting his judgement, of course helps with my changing feelings.
This is what I think will happen, but I don’t know.
However, what I know for sure is that when Master T decides to override my feelings about a man, I will submit to his will and give myself because he wants me to give myself.
To be continued… The Story of O (19) – Free Will
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