Allow me to talk about aspects of our relationship, the fascination I have for Histoire d’O and the similarities between the two. I frequently call the movie my ‘training video’. Each time I see it, I discover more aspects of my submissive self.
Continued from… The Story of O (16) – An Alibi
But I’m yours!
If there is one thing I have never doubted, from the moment I have met Master T, is that I want to be with him. Our relationship started off with him not wanting to be in a relationship with me, because I just had a divorce. He didn’t want to be the man in between. So, because he didn’t want me, I had an affair with a married colleague and also met The Traveler for sex. I told Master T everything about it, but there were a couple of months where we had little to no contact because he had pneumonia. Then, about thirteen months after we met each other for the first time, I visited him. That was the moment we both knew: we want to be together.
From that moment on I have made a commitment. I have found the love of my life and I wanted to be with him forever – through good and bad times. We moved in together about fifteen months later and another fifteen months later, we got married. About five years after that we made our D/s commitment.
Before we made this commitment, I was already his. The D/s commitment only confirmed that, but I never saw myself as anyone else’s from the moment he and I both knew we wanted to be together. I am his wife, his best friend, his lover, his slut, his property and he is my husband, my best friend, my lover, my master, my keeper, my owner. We are made for each other and committed to each other. We laugh together and cry together, we are serious together and we act like kids at times. Where many other couple have things they prefer to do without their partners, we don’t have that. It would be no punishment to either of us if we could every day together, from the moment we open our eyes in the morning until we return to bed. We love to be together.
I know Master T is mine as much as I am his, but it’s different from the way I am his. He doesn’t desire any other man and would never fuck another woman, even if I approve. He will touch them, spank them, finger then to an orgasm, but he will never fuck them. He requires of me to give my body to others. Yes, I have a say in the matter, up to a certain height (yes, there is a click or no there’s no click), but he is the one who decides if someone else is allowed to fuck me or not. I am his property, his to lend out as he sees fit.
I have never belonged to anyone in the way I belong to Master T. I feel an incredibly deep love when I tell him:
To be continued… The Story of O (18) – Give Yourself
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