Today is day 3 of Tabitha Rayne’s #30DayOrgasmFun and yes, this year I am part of it.
In Tabitha’s own words:
Last year I was feeling so blue in February and March that I decided to try and lift my spirits by having a daily orgasm. I often struggle with my mental health and wanted to see if by prescribing myself some ‘me’ time, I could release enough endorphins to reconnect my mind, body and soul.
Again, as before, this is all about connecting with you, your body, your mind, your soul so there’s no pressure here! I struggled long and hard about calling it an orgasm challenge, but decided that could push an elusive shy orgasm even further out of reach.
Since I am… let’s call it… ‘mentally challenged’ at this moment, I wanted to do something to get back in touch with myself. Master T wants me to go back to the GP, who some months ago offered me help if I notice that I cannot deal with my grief. I am not quite ready for that yet. I have reached out for help in the past and I know how it goes, how psychologists work and I don’t know if I am ready for that. I have this thing in me where I don’t want to see a psychologist because I don’t want them to take my grief away (just writing that brings tears to my eyes). I know this is wrong, that all they will do is help me find my balance again, but I first want to try if I can manage that without professional help.
That’s where the #30DayOrgasmFun gets in. As of Sunday, I started masturbating daily. I am not focusing on reaching an orgasm, but rather focusing on re-connecting with myself. I want to feel my body, free my mind, get in touch with my soul. I want to re-find my strength, my willpower. I am not doing this only by participating in the #30DayOrgasmFun though.
I have also made a commitment to get back to eating the LCHF way again. It’s not only to lose the weight I have gained in the past year, but to improve my health. You see, when I started eating LCHF in June 2016 it was because I constantly had tummy ache, flatulence and generally not feeling well or fit. I notice that I am almost at that same level again and somehow I just cannot stop eating the wrong things, such as french fries, chocolate, bread and other things that contain either too much carbs or are sugar bombs. I need to stop that and hence using the #30DayOrgasmFun where I will be concentrating on my body for 30 days anyway, to also get back to a healthy way of eating.
As for the #30DayOrgasmFun, I might not be doing that all by myself. After what I have written yesterday, I have good hopes that Master T will help me with a couple of orgasms this month. I have told him about the ‘challenge’ and he was okay with me doing it. He also referenced to the evening he used my body as a pinball machine, and remarked that we might have to play it more in future. I knew he meant the orgasms and not the actual tickling he did. Maybe the #30DayOrgasmFun will even be a way for us to get 100% back into the ‘swing of things’. I know I really want to, but I will never push him in a direction. I am a patient woman.
So, this is day 3. How did the first two days go?
Day 1 was a total disaster.
No, wait, that is not the way I want to look at it. Day 1 just turned out differently than I would have liked it to. I was tired after a night of little to no sleep and even though I constantly thought of masturbating, I couldn’t get myself to do it. It’s kind of difficult to now concentrate on the masturbating and not wait until my body tells me it needs an orgasm. Early evening I went for a shower and during the shower, I masturbated. I used the water jets to stimulate my clitoris and alternated that by using my fingers. No matter how nice the feeling, no orgasm happened. I thought about continuing in the bedroom, but in the end chose not to do it. I have tried. I had some ‘connection’ with my body by trying and I decided to leave it at that for day 1.
As for the LCHF diet… this really was a total failure on day 1. Normally, when I know that I would start on the diet again, I would weigh myself. It was late afternoon before I thought about the scale and by then I had also eaten the wrong things again, so I decided that ‘tomorrow is another day’.
Day 2 was better. When I woke up and realized Master T had already gone downstairs, I actually thought about masturbating, but didn’t. Like I said before, I am not a morning person, which means that my need has to be very high before I would masturbate when I have just woken up. About two hours later, just after a shower, I masturbated. Once again I turned to my trusted Womanizer, thinking it would bring me to a quick orgasm, but my release was elusive. I eventually had a climax, sort of. It was not satisfactory at all, probably once again, because the need wasn’t there. I find it interesting how my body has adjusted to accept release only when it needs it.
As for the LCHF eating on day 2… that didn’t go well either, even though this morning I did remember to weigh myself. Tomorrow, I promised myself. Tomorrow. Maybe the fact that I ate scones and jam and immediately after that I had tummy ache and was nauseous will finally get me to improve my eating pattern.
On to day 3, 4, 5 and beyond…
© Rebel’s Notes
The A to Z Blogging Challenge
The Letter C
In this fifth year of participating in the A to Z Blogging Challenge, I am taking words from my regular post starting with the letter of the day, and looking at the meaning of those words. Today is for words starting with ‘C’ and I have chosen to look at ‘challenge’, ‘chocolate’, ‘climax’, ‘clitoris’ & ‘commitment’.
A challenge is a call to someone to participate in a competitive situation, but also a call to prove or justify something. This is when it’s used as a noun. When you use it as a verb, it means inviting someone to engage in a contents, or to dispute the truth or validity of something. I see the Smut Marathon as a challenge, but not because in the end there will be a winner, but each round the writers challenge themselves to write something they might have never done before. The #30DayOrgasmFun is a challenge to me, because of the reconnecting with myself; my body and mind.
Of course I didn’t have to include this over here, because everyone knows what chocolate is, but I just wanted to say: I love chocolate SO much!
A climax is a synonym for orgasm and is the way I normally use it. However, it’s also used for the highest or most intense point in the development of something, like a career. In a book a climax is where there is a major turning point in the plot.
In the sense that I normally use this word, it can be used both as a noun or a verb, for example: I had a climax or I climaxed.
This is another word that I didn’t have to include here as we all know that the erectile organ of the vulva, homologous to the penis of the male is called the clitoris. That’s such a mouthful that I would rather just stick to the knowledge that my clitoris brings me lots of pleasure (and subsequent climaxes).
When you are dedicated to a cause, you are committed, like a company’s commitment to quality or service. Sometimes you cannot make a commitment to something because you don’t have time for it. Sometimes when you are committed to one thing, you have less time for another. Synonyms are: dedication, vow, promise, obligation, duty.
© Rebel’s Notes