Allow me to talk about aspects of our relationship, the fascination I have for Histoire d’O and the similarities between the two. I frequently call the movie my ‘training video’. Each time I see it, I discover more aspects of my submissive self.
Continued from… The Story of O (12) – Belonging
I’ll do as you say.
This is what O tells Sir Stephan, but before she does, she had to get to know him, as well as the way he treated her – both with love and strictness. He hurt her and loved her. He cherished her and submitted her to his will. At first O submitted to Sir Stephen because that is what René expected of her, but in the end she submitted because it was what she wanted to do. She told him:
I’ll do anything you want.
I am owned by Master T and I submit to his will because I want to. I will do anything he expects of me.
Yes. However, when I say anything, of course this is within the boundaries of our relationship. I trust him to challenge those boundaries, but not to harm me in any way or deliberately doing things he knows is on my list of hard limits. As Cammies has expressed so well in her post Trust and Consent, trust in my D/s relationship is a big thing, it’s so solid that I can leave it to Master T to decide what happens and I can fully say that I will do anything he wants of me.
I cannot say that about just any person I play with. When we play with others, there is a negotiation beforehand. Not always between me and the play partner, but sometimes between Master T and the play partner and I fully trust Master T to not allow anything to happen that he knows I wouldn’t want.
“I’m yours” are words I have frequently said to Master T. Sometimes when he asked ‘who do you belong to’ and other times because the moment was just right and I wanted to tell him that I am his. Belonging to him, knowing he owns me, is like a blanket around my shoulders on a cold day. It’s like my favorite ‘lazy clothes’ that comforts me on a day at home. It’s like hot chocolate with cream on a cold winter’s day. It fits me like a glove. I cannot imagine my life without belonging to Master T. Even if our D/s disappears and we return to ‘only’ being a married couple, the feeling of belonging to him will always remain.
To be continued… The Story of O (14) – Examining
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