I grew up in the very conservative South Africa, which frequently had me hiding my sexuality and interest in sex. That changed when I came to the Netherlands, and gradually changed even more when I met the love of my life, Master T. I wanted to highlight some highlight in my life, of my sex and sexuality.
It’s roundabout this age that I became aware of my sex and my own sexuality. Was it the abuse that made me aware, or would I have become aware, regardless?
Spreading my legs wide for my brother for him to pour water on my cunt from up high. Mom walked in on this and from then on we were not allowed to bathe together anymore.
Touching someone of the same gender for the first time.
Flashed my cunt to the neighbor boy.
Slipped my hand into the pants of an older boy and touched cock for the first time.
Allowed a young man (aged 18 or 19) to push a finger in my cunt.
Was madly in love with a boy in my class and lied to my parents to go on holiday with him. We were naked together in the dunes of the Namib desert. He never fucked me – not with his penis anyway.
My first serious boyfriend. Lots of touching and ‘hand work’.
First time a penis enters my vagina… and leaves me pregnant.
First boyfriend after I became a mom. Lots of sex, visiting him in his room.
Married for the first time.
Pregnant for the second time.
Sex with a superior.
Sex with a man the same age as my mother.
In a relationship with a man four years younger than me.
In a relationship with a married couple.
Moved to the Netherlands
In a relationship where he was looking for a maid, not a lover. The only good thing of this relationship is that he introduced me to anal sex.
Met my second husband and married him within a year.
Posted naked photos of me online without the knowledge of my husband. He wasn’t interested, despite me asking.
Cybersex and chatting online. I visited a cousin in South Africa and spent a night in a hotel with someone both she and I fancied.
Met Master T.
Sex with several men I have met online. Sometimes in a car during lunch time, in a sauna and yes, even in a hotel. Sex with a colleague. Master T knew about everything. He wanted me to do what I want to do, because he didn’t want to be the ‘man in between’.
Finally in a relationship with Master T.
Moved in with Master T.
Married Master T.
Formal BDSM relationship with Master T.
First time sex with another woman after the married couple in South Africa.
First time fucked by another man with Master T watching.
And I guess, as they say… the rest is history…
© Rebel’s Notes