On my 101 list I have a goal to make a list of 25 things that I like about myself. I started making a numbered list so many times, but find it far to hard to do it. Therefore, I decided just to write this post and tell you what I like and why. And in the end you can be the judge whether I have reached the goal or not.
There are quite some things I like on my body, but definitely not everything. I love my hair, which has grown so long over the last couple of years and that, even though long, has abundant curls. I am turning grey (and have been since early in my 20’s) but I have my hair colored red every 3-4 months. Red, because it looks much better on me than blond hair, which I also had for some time. My hazel eyes are nicely shaped and another feature I am quite happy with. When I’m emotional, my eyes sometimes look green.
Moving lower, of course I have to tell you that I love my breasts. I love that, despite my age, they are still firm and round and I am not able to trap a pencil under my breast. And my nipples… damn, I love my nipples. They have given me so much pleasure up to now and will for a long time still. Moving lower still… my legs. Even though I am overweight and my thighs are bigger than I want them, I still love my legs. I once was a gymnast and I loved to show my legs off. Now I know there’s a lot of people out there who don’t like feet, but I definitely love mine. My toes are beautifully shaped too.
I can tell you that I love my ass, but that’s not always the case. I have a rounded behind, and sometimes it’s just too big for my liking. But mostly I am okay with it and actually like it. Even if I lose weight, my behind is still quite rounded.
Those are the physical things I like about myself, but there’s more.
There are a couple of characteristics that I love too. I’m a caring person; sometimes too caring. Once I see someone as a friend, I go out of my way to help that person, sometimes forgetting about myself in the process. I’m empathic and can easily feel tears burning when friends or family are going through a difficult time. I need to learn to get a balance in that, as I tend to get myself in a twist when there is no reason to do so. I’m working on these things, working on getting a better balance in my thoughts and emotions. I am currently working on caring for myself and not always only for others.
On to some practical things. I am highly organized, not only at my work, but also with my blogs. When I decide to do something, I go for it and do my utmost best to make a success of it. Sometimes, when the first excitement wears off, I’m done with it and move on to the next project, but after five years my excitement for this blog has not worn off, so I will be here for many years still. I absolutely love my creative skills. Nowadays I am mostly busy with my writing and maintaining my different websites, and I desperately want to get back to painting again, because I think that will help me to get my balance back. In the past I have also made my own clothes and greeting cards and scrap books. I just love to be busy making something out of nothing.
I generally have a good self image, but like anyone else I also have times when I totally hate myself. Those are the days I work hard to tell myself that I am worth it. Many years ago I started saying that if you don’t accept yourself the way you are, you cannot expect anyone else to accept you. Or, if you don’t love yourself, how can you expect anyone else to do it. You might think that this makes me a very confident person, but unfortunately I sometimes forget to accept or love myself. I better repeat those words to myself a lot more…
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