It’s been said that eyes are the window to the soul and some scientists have even confirmed this in a study that was carried out by the University of Melbourne. Whether this is true or not or whether this might just words uttered by Shakespeare or Leonardo DaVinci, I believe that feelings can be seen in your eyes. Whether you are hurt or happy or sad or angry, your eyes give you away.
Looking through all the photos that has been made of me, I realized that in many of them you can indeed see my feelings, my emotions. Some of them show me in a mischievous mood, others show me with tears in my eyes during a flogging session. Yet another shows me looking into the camera in concentration and in others it seems like I was angry or at the very least feeling uncomfortable with the camera pointing in my direction. And then, just sometimes, there’s a photo in there that I really like, that shows me how I really am, that has not caught me in an awkward moment. I am not ready to share all of my face with you, but I can share my eyes with you.
I have always been a very emotional person. When I am happy, I am intensely happy. When I am sad, I cry until my eyes are red and puffy. When I am angry, I want to scream and throw things, but am doing less so the older I get. When I am hurt or I think/feel I have hurt someone, I am sad and upset and down for days, until I have found peace within myself again. I tend to do everything to the extreme. I trust easily, get hurt easily. I easily have fond and loving feelings towards people and if they hurt me, those fond feelings can turn to the total opposite of the scale and become ugly. However, even if the feelings turn to the darker side, I will never be mean to someone, unless they have me with my back against the wall. I will much rather just keep quiet and let them be. I don’t like hurting people, even if they have hurt me. Having these intense emotions is not always easy and thankfully, since Master T is a much more rational person than I am, He helps me to keep the balance between the rational and emotional aspects in my life.
This post ties in with the sixth challenge of the 26 by 26 website:
Decide upon an emotion you wish to convey, use that as your guide to build your story.
~ Ian Teh
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