Continued from… Day 29
Is your need to submit being met? If not, or if your situation changed, do you think that you could continue in your life and still be happy/content if you were never able to express your submission in the way that feels best to you again? What makes submission special to you?
My need to submit is definitely being met. Master T is everything I want in a Dominant. Now I know that He is the only Dominant I have ever had and therefore there is no one else I can compare Him with. However, I cannot imagine myself being with anyone else than Him. I have had my share of relationships, and I have never felt so loved, so cherished, so safe as I do now. I cannot imagine myself giving my submission to anyone else, being able to trust another man the way I trust Master T. He understands me without words. He frequently knows how I feel even before I know it!
Will I ever be able to be without my submission again? No, I don’t think I will manage. I think that if for whatever reason we decide that we would not continue with our D/s relationship, a huge void will be left in my life. I might never be truly happy again. But then again, I know that neither Master T nor me would decide to stop. Why? Because he tattooed me as symbol of my submission to Him. Master T does not take this lightly. And because He does not take it lightly, I do not either. He would never have tattooed me if He had one inkling of a thought that our D/s relationship might not last.
My submission is special to me. I have finally recognized it as one of the facets of my personality and have embraced it fully. Sometimes I feel as if I can stand high on a roof and scream to all in the world how happy my submission makes me. I want everyone to know how proud I am to be Master T’s sub, how happy it makes me to submit to Him. Everyone sees me as a strong woman who can manage her work and her home life. Yes, I am that strong woman too, but that too is just another facet of me. I would love for them to know about all my facets, but know that no person that comes into one’s life will ever know all facets, unless you let them come close. The only one that has ever come close enough to get to know each and every facet that is part of me, is Master T. And He is the one who unlocked the last one, the one I did not even know about: my submission.
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