Continued from… Day 1
Describe who you might submit to and how. Are you exclusively submissive in marriage or just in the bedroom? Are you submissive only in the context of a scene or in a role or throughout your daily life? Are you submissive to play partners or only in the context of a relationship?
Day 2 has so many questions that I want to answer all at once. However, then this post might end up to be one huge mess, so let me split the questions and answer them one by one…
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Are you exclusively submissive in marriage or just in the bedroom?
As mentioned in day 1 of these questions, I am totally equal to my Husband except on a sexual level. In our sex life, I am indeed submissive. Unfortunately, with teenage children we have to be careful outside the bedroom. Therefore, our play mainly takes place in the bedroom. Still, we do find moments in which He succeeds in pushing me into a submissive mode. Sometimes it’s only the look in His eyes. Other times He would kiss me and move His hand to the small of my neck, push His fingers into my hair and pull my head back. Or He would pinch my nipples and pull them up, getting me to stand on my toes, the way He has taught me to do in our bedroom. These stolen moments are never noticed by the children and frequently are a prelude to what will follow in the bedroom later.
Once the kids have left the house to fly out on their own – in about ten years, I guess… I hope – I can see myself as being submissive anywhere else in the house.
We are starting to get in touch with other people who are engaged in D/s (or similar) relationships. The last time we were in the company of others, my Husband made a remark which instantly sparked my submissive feelings. The rest of that evening I was in a submissive frame of mind, which felt really good.
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Are you submissive only in the context of a scene or in a role or throughout your daily life?
Both. But then again not.
Let me explain: as said, we are equals in our marriage, except for sex and we only play in the bedroom. Therefore yes, I am submissive only in the context of a scene. But then again, in my mind, I am always submissive to my Husband. So there I can answer the question with a yes, I am submissive throughout my daily life.
We are now in the second year of our D/s relationship and during the first year I have discovered that my submission to my Husband runs deeper than only in a sexual context. It comes out in different things… Seeing Him sitting in his recliner and feeling the intense urge to sit down at his feet… Seeing Him in the kitchen and walking towards Him, giving Him a quick kiss, wishing He would order me to my knees… Exchanging emails with Him and each time I open a new one, I wish there would be an order for a task in it. I need to feel my submission. Daily. It is so much a part of me that I cannot go without.
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Are you submissive to play partners or only in the context of a relationship?
I am submissive only in the context of a relationship.
That said, I must admit that there is a but…
If my Husband expects of me to submit to another man or woman, then I will. My Husband decides what happens to my body. He is my owner, my protector, my Dom, my Master. I guess that means that eventually, sometime in the future, I might answer the first part of the question with a ‘yes’.
To be continued… Day 3
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