I have been ordered to put this on paper, to write about it, to blog about it, to tell the world…
Three months ago I blogged about a conversation my Husband and I had about Him offering me to another. In the post I mentioned that my Husband asked me what I would consider an ideal first step for when he offers me to another person – male or female. Back then I could not really answer the question and I am still not able to do so. Many things have played through my head since that day, but still I don’t know what I would prefer. I have actually come to the point where I have decided to just leave it to him to decide. I will obey his orders, because I know he will keep me safe. And I know he will always be with me.
Even though many things have played through my head, we have not talked about this. I thought that it has moved to the back of his mind and even that it might not happen anymore. That it will always just be one of our fantasies. In recent posts on my blog I have even said that I have stopped focusing on ever having a third person join us for sexy fun. This post, however, is not about my focus being back on this subject.
How mistaken I was about it always only be one of our fantasies. I was out for a beauty treatment on Sunday afternoon and when I came home, he told me that I should mentally prepare myself to undress myself in the presence of a third person. I looked at him in surprise and he told me that it will happen sooner than I think. He did not want to answer any of my other questions. When? Who? Where? He just stopped my stream of questions and told me to just listen. All I needed to know was that I have to mentally prepare myself to undress in the presence of a third person. That’s it. No more information.
Can you imagine the thoughts racing through my mind? No, wait, take one step back. Can you imagine that I instantly went wet and stayed wet for the rest of the day?
Back to my thoughts…
When will this happen? I know my Husband… sometimes these things can take time, but if he says it’s going to happen, it will. I just wish I knew when, but I also know he will not tell me. I guess every time I get in the car next to him from now on I will wonder whether we are on our way to a place where I will have to follow his orders – in the presence of a third person. Where will it happen? Not at our place, that bit at least I know for sure. At the other person’s house? In a hotel? In nature? Oh just thinking about this makes me feel both nervous and excited. Who will the person be who will watch me while I undress? A man? A woman? I have a feeling that it will be a man and I think I know just who that man is, but I will never know for sure until the moment I see him in front of me.
Oh, will my nerves be able to survive while I mentally prepare myself?
PS: This week’s prompt for Wank Wednesday was #paper.
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