My weirdest/most interesting sexual fantasy? Quite an interesting question, and one that had me thinking for a while. I have quite some fantasies, of which a lot of them are mentioned on this blog. Just check my fantasy page to read some of them and maybe you can decide for yourself whether they are interesting or weird.
What some people might see as weird and others as quite normal, is that most of my fantasies have something to do with submitting myself to others. In my fantasies ‘things’ are done to me… I let things happen to me. I’m never in a leading role, always in a receiving one. It makes me feel good. It makes me feel content. What might be seen as very weird is that many nights when I want to get my mind to peace so I can fall asleep, I think of a fantasy. I always see myself as immobile or almost immobile and someone else (mostly my husband but also sometimes a woman) doing things to me. It might be kissing, stroking, licking, fucking… it might be anything at all. Thing is that I just love to fantasize about submitting myself.
Recently another fantasy has started in my mind: one where I am being used by more than one person. There was already one fantasy story on this subject to be found on my blog, but a series of fantasies where this subject mainlines is now also running on my blog. The idea of being unable to prevent numerous hands, mouths and cocks from using my body is quite exciting. And soothing. Is that a weird thing? Finding a fantasy like this to be soothing? Having a fantasy like this help me to fall asleep? When I submit myself, I feel content. I feel as if I have found my place. I want to be in the submitting position, and I want people to use me the way they see fit.
Thinking of my sexual fantasies, I think it’s safe to say that I am the submissive, and that I love being it.
Then there’s this one fantasy that is just a bit rougher than the above… the fantasy of being raped… but that one I have never worked out in detail and I don’t think I ever will.
(written on 14.05.2011)
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