Is it sinful?

Keeping vigil this past week, literally watching the life draining out of someone, so many thoughts ran through my mind:

Is it sinful to wish someone would die, seeing their suffering, wanting them to be at peace?

Is it sinful to wish my life would be back to ‘normal’ again? To wish I could go to sleep and all of this that we are going through, was just a bad dream?

Is it sinful to wonder whether my Husband will ever want to have sex again, after the hard time he is going through now.

Is it sinful to long for his touch (not sex) every day, even though I know that now it’s the last thing he even wants to think about?

Is it sinful of me to have these thoughts? That I find what we are going through very hard?

That keeping my blog up makes me feel as if at least something is still ‘normal’?

Does it make me a terrible person? Or does it make me human?

Sinful Sunday

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