Today is mom’s funeral. We all knew this day would come, but it came quicker than we all anticipated. It hurts. I cannot tell you how much it hurts. There are no words… Mom fought like a tiger. From the day she learned that she had lung cancer, she fought. She tried every treatment they Read More
Written on 17.06.2017 The last months have not been easy. This might be an understatement. It started out in September 2016 when Master T started having problems with his prosthetic leg. Somewhere between then and halfway through December he also started having panic attacks and hyperventilated. He could not drive anymore, as the information from Read More
This: “Those that know me call me a masochist but I’m not sure… I like the endorphin rush and being able to take what’s given but I’m scared of the pain. Scared that it will hurt in a way that I can’t take.” This echoes exactly what I feel about pain, how I experience it Read More
I have written about porn on my blog a couple of times before, the first time back in 2010 when I still referred to myself in the third person and the last time I answered to a Wicked Wednesday prompt on porn. When I read the first post, a thought popped up: I cannot watch porn Read More
(Written on 12.02.2017) By now most people following me know that my mom is gravely ill and she is on ‘borrowed time’. Our lives have been turned upside down, and I have never seen the inside of a hospital as much as I have since the end of January. On one of those early days, Read More
If you have been reading my words for quite some time, you know by now I have only found true love when I met Master T. Being able to be myself, being accepted and loved for who I am… with him I am on the most amazing journey of my life. But, he was not Read More
Ever since we had lunch with Mister Silent, he has been in my thoughts; in my dreams. Anticipation for our next meeting has taken over. My mind has a will of its own. Whether I am at work or in the car on my way to work, at our regular hangout or in my bed… Read More
It’s the end of the year… a new year lies before us. For some 2016 has been a terrible year, for others it’s been the best one ever. We can all make a fresh start in 2017… how are you going to do that? Even though 2016 has been a year in which both Master Read More
Looking back on 2016 and specifically the kink part of it, we have kept a low profile with regards to meetings and kink between us. The first months of the year had me recovering from the whooping cough that kept me home for the last six weeks of 2015. By the time I was more Read More
The prompt for this week’s Wicked Wednesday is: Do you do sexual things in your relationship just for your partner that you don’t like doing? Are you always the one trying to keep your friends or family happy? Are you a people-pleaser? I won’t even go into how I was a people-pleaser, doing everything to Read More