This: “Those that know me call me a masochist but I’m not sure… I like the endorphin rush and being able to take what’s given but I’m scared of the pain. Scared that it will hurt in a way that I can’t take.” This echoes exactly what I feel about pain, how I experience it Read More
I have written about porn on my blog a couple of times before, the first time back in 2010 when I still referred to myself in the third person and the last time I answered to a Wicked Wednesday prompt on porn. When I read the first post, a thought popped up: I cannot watch porn Read More
(Written on 12.02.2017) By now most people following me know that my mom is gravely ill and she is on ‘borrowed time’. Our lives have been turned upside down, and I have never seen the inside of a hospital as much as I have since the end of January. On one of those early days, Read More
If you have been reading my words for quite some time, you know by now I have only found true love when I met Master T. Being able to be myself, being accepted and loved for who I am… with him I am on the most amazing journey of my life. But, he was not Read More
Ever since we had lunch with Mister Silent, he has been in my thoughts; in my dreams. Anticipation for our next meeting has taken over. My mind has a will of its own. Whether I am at work or in the car on my way to work, at our regular hangout or in my bed… Read More
It’s the end of the year… a new year lies before us. For some 2016 has been a terrible year, for others it’s been the best one ever. We can all make a fresh start in 2017… how are you going to do that? Even though 2016 has been a year in which both Master Read More
Looking back on 2016 and specifically the kink part of it, we have kept a low profile with regards to meetings and kink between us. The first months of the year had me recovering from the whooping cough that kept me home for the last six weeks of 2015. By the time I was more Read More
The prompt for this week’s Wicked Wednesday is: Do you do sexual things in your relationship just for your partner that you don’t like doing? Are you always the one trying to keep your friends or family happy? Are you a people-pleaser? I won’t even go into how I was a people-pleaser, doing everything to Read More
Continued from LCHF #14: Three Weeks Apparently my body is really taking its time to adjust to my new weight, because losing weight is going incredibly slow. Since my last post on 15 November I have only lost half a kilogram, which really is not much. I hoped to have lost 15 kilograms by Christmas, Read More
Why do you define yourself as submissive? Try to steer away from ‘I like to serve’ and see what other things you have to offer. Source The above is one of those questions I have saved to answer at a later stage, and then I read one of Rye’s blog posts which instantly triggered me to Read More