A Grounding Need

This: “Those that know me call me a masochist but I’m not sure… I like the endorphin rush and being able to take what’s given but I’m scared of the pain. Scared that it will hurt in a way that I can’t take.” This echoes exactly what I feel about pain, how I experience it ... continue reading

The Story of O (4) – Tears

Allow me to talk about aspects of our relationship, the fascination I have for Histoire d’O and the similarities between the two. I frequently call the movie my ‘training video’. Each time I see it, I discover more aspects of my submissive self. Continued from… The Story of O (3) – Always There After O ... continue reading

Crawlspace

The above gif has been made of images that Master T took of me when we stayed in a hotel for our ten-year wedding anniversary. I crawled away from him, from the lounge to the bedroom, which was about ten to fifteen meters apart. Then I turned around, and crawled back to him. By the ... continue reading

The Story of O (3) – Always There

Allow me to talk about aspects of our relationship, the fascination I have for Histoire d’O and the similarities between the two. I frequently call the movie my ‘training video’. Each time I see it, I discover more aspects of my submissive self. Continued from… The Story of O (2) – Crossing Legs René takes ... continue reading

The Story of O (2) – Crossing Legs

Allow me to talk about aspects of our relationship, the fascination I have for Histoire d’O and the similarities between the two. I frequently call the movie my ‘training video’. Each time I see it, I discover more aspects of my submissive self. Continued from… The Story of O (1) – Introduction The movie, The ... continue reading

The Story of O (1) – Introduction

I have always been fascinated by The Story of O. There, I said it. And what I will say too is that I am still fascinated by it. I know that there are lots of people out there who definitely don’t feel the same about it, and that’s perfectly okay. We cannot all like the ... continue reading

I Will Do…

I will do what I deem necessary… Those words have been spoken to me by Master T on several occasions and recently exactly the same words came up in a online conversation between Mister Silent and me. What is it about those words that make my heart skip a beat? I have to clarify here. ... continue reading

Mister Silent: Anticipation

Ever since we had lunch with Mister Silent, he has been in my thoughts; in my dreams. Anticipation for our next meeting has taken over. My mind has a will of its own. Whether I am at work or in the car on my way to work, at our regular hangout or in my bed… ... continue reading

Meet Mister Silent (2)

Continued from… Meet Mister Silent (1) Once during lunch, between the starter and the main course and while we were talking, Mister Silent leaned towards me and stroke my leg with his right hand, running his fingers up and down and probably pulling my dress up a bit more. But, it was only after our ... continue reading

Meet Mister Silent (1)

We started following each other on Twitter years ago, Mister Silent and me. There was just something about him, something about the words he used that drew me in. He was respectful, interested, well-spoken and I wanted to know more about him. You know how it goes, that when you hear someone’s voice, you form ... continue reading