Whatever happened over this past year, be thankful  for where it brought you.

This is something I saw somewhere online and at the time of reading it, I was too sad to appreciate those words. But, I am thankful. I still grief for my mother – every day and just writing those words, admitting my grief, brought tears to my eyes – but I am also thankful that I have been able to do for her what I did. I was at her bedside every day for the last 6 weeks of her life and the last 11 days and nights I was with her constantly. I held her hand when we knew the end was so very close and kissed her forehead to tell her to let go, that I am strong enough to go on. I still believe she heard me, that she let go as from that moment she was still… forever.

2017 has not been easy, there’s no doubt about that. Still, there were smiles and happy times, love and laughter, before, during and after… and there still is. Love is what keep us together, what makes us strong and love is what I will feel when the clock ticks away the last hours, minutes and seconds of 2017 and I am surrounded by those I love dearly and deeply. I will start 2018 the same way I did 2017, with positivity and hope, because it is just not part of my nature to give up.

Thank you to everyone who has supported me in this year, who jumped in to help when it was needed and who had kind words in difficult times. You know who you are.

I wish all of you the very best for 2018!

Let’s make it a GOOD year, even if not-so-good things happen!

Reflecting and counting down…

© Rebel’s Notes

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18 thoughts on “Countdown

  1. Rebel, you are a brave, incredible, wonderful human and I’m so sorry for all your struggles and loss this year. Life certainly keeps us on our toes. Biggest of hugs to you (and Master T!). xx Hy

  2. Wild image, heartfelt words.
    You already know I wish you all the best this year. I’ll be relieved when the yearly list of “firsts” without mum is over and I’m sure you will too.

  3. Jo says:

    This is a beautiful post, Marie. I think a lot of people don’t really appreciate their parents until they’re gone, so I think it’s wonderful that you spent so much time loving and cherishing your relationship with your mom. I wish you a beautiful, happy, and healthy 2018 full of light and love. xxx

  4. Lovely to see you with a clock as well (almost made spelling mistake there!!!)
    Have a lovely, peaceful and fun New Year.
    Wishing you a happier 2018 !!!
    Big kisses from London !!!
    Xxx – K

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