The Story of O (1) – Introduction

Histoire d'O

I have always been fascinated by The Story of O.

There, I said it. And what I will say too is that I am still fascinated by it. I know that there are lots of people out there who definitely don’t feel the same about it, and that’s perfectly okay. We cannot all like the same things.

Histoire d'O

I grew up in a very conservative religious family, where falling pregnant at the age of 16 almost had me banned from church. Only the fact that I confessed in front of the church community in the main service on Sunday allowed me to stay in the church and to have my child baptized. Two years later I left the church, tired of the hypocrite people who sinned in daily life and sat in church every Sunday with their ‘devout’ manners.

All through my life I have felt different than others. Not better, just different. There was something missing and I couldn’t put my finger to it. In search of that something, I made a lot of wrong choices in my life, all of which had made me stronger and had made me grown into the woman I am today. And, the woman I was when I met Master T.

We made our D/s commitment in January 2011 but it must have been a year or two before that we watched Histoire d’O for the first time. I had no idea what to expect of the movie, but Master T had seen it before. I can still remember my intense feeling of longing when I saw the movie for the first time. I didn’t understand the longing; didn’t recognize my own submission.

Gradually I learned more about myself, about my desires, and then in January 2011 we made our D/s commitment. Master T immediately lay down some rules for me and I believe it was somewhere in 2011, maybe 2012 that we watched The Story of O again. I called it my ‘trainings video’. Years went by that we didn’t watch the movie and then in November 2016 we decided to watch it again. It was only because we had problems with the television broadcast in our bedroom that we made this decision. Over the course of a week we watched it twice, and the second time we watched it, I decided that I want to write about it. I wanted the books to read and I wanted to write about it.

Now, after six years of embracing my submission and having grown into it as much as I did, I notice things from The Story of O that is so incredibly similar to my our D/s relationship, and I want to write about each aspect of it.

Bear with me while I take you through aspects of our relationship; while I try to explain to you just why Histoire d’O has so much meaning to me. There are some aspects of O that I might never experience, such as being at a place as Roissy and being used the way she was used, but so many aspects of O exists in my life. I only realized it fully when we watched the movie again and somehow it has brought me in touch with the deeper submissive me again.

To be continued… The Story of O (2) – Crossing Legs

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10 thoughts on “The Story of O (1) – Introduction

  1. I agree with others, I prefer the book. But watching the movie again after reading the book is perhaps better. I too find the story entrancing, and am looking forward to reading again through your experiences.

  2. I am very much looking forward to reading this series. I have the book but have not been able to submerse myself into it, though I can not figure out why. I do have a friend who contributes his awakening to bdsm to Story of O though and I love the passion in his voice when he talks about it.

    Stella
    Xxx

  3. I wasn’t that enamored of the movie but then I saw it after reading the book and so I think I had already made O into a movie in my head and so any other attempt at it was not going to work for me. However the book absolutely spoke to me in one fundamental way, O was prepared to be go to some pretty dark places as part of her submission, she was at times almost lost in it and I saw myself in that and it scared me. Could I, would I, go as far as O and it made me realise that with the wrong man I could easily get lost and that I needed a partner who would both help me explore and learn and push me but also not let me get lost and ultimately keep me safe from harm.

    It was a personal revaluation that I have always felt was very positive as it meant I guided my submission well and only shared it with someone who I felt absolutely fit that bill…. luckily I found that man soon after reading the book and he even went as far as to marry me 😉

    Molly

  4. I saw the movie, but it didn’t catch me as much as the book did, which is so beautiful and recognisable (sometimes i still love to read it) just as some of your words are. Curious to read your next blog.

  5. I remember reading the Story of O for the first time, and being mesmerized by the dreamy literary scope of the prose. I have a book called, The Illustrated Story Of O, which was published in the year 2000. It contains extracts from the original text with posed photographs to match.

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