Deepthroat

Sucking The Traveler

After dedicating February Photofest 2017 to the history of my seven years of blogging, I decided to do the A-Z Blogging Challenge 2017 in a similar way. Similar, not the same.

Deepthroating is something I have always been intrigued by. To be able to take a cock so deep in your mouth that you feel it against the back of your throat, and of course that when you do it, not to gag. It is something I have tried many times before and every time I did, I gagged. Even when I concentrate very hard to breathe through my nose, when I try even harder to ignore the gag reflex… even then I don’t succeed in doing it.

There was a time when Master T tried to train me to deepthroat, where I had to go on my knees every night and take him deep in my mouth. Eventually we stopped with the training (for other reasons than me not succeeding). If I think back on it now and think about all the efforts I have made to manage this ‘skill’, I wonder if it is something that one can learn to do. Maybe it’s one of those things you either can do or not. Then again, I believe that if you want to, you can really learn to do anything you want.
(I have to be careful when I say this, because Master T reads all my words…)

What intrigues me the most about deepthroating is to be in an upside down position and to have my mouth fucked. Master T once fucked my mouth, but that was not in this ‘deepthroating position’. I have been in the upside down position twice now – once with The Traveler and once with Mister Silent.
However, I still find it difficult to let go of the control. I want my hands close to my head, to be able to keep some of the control. I want to be able to push the man away if I feel like I am not getting any air. I am incredibly afraid of smothering. The thought frightens me. It affects me in the same way as it does when I am on my stomach on the bed. Even if only one nostril is pushed shut against the bedding, I panic. The same happens when I am in the upside down position and I cannot breathe freely through my nose. I need to be able to push the man away or I might go in a panic and hurt both me and the man fucking my mouth.

One day I hope I will be able to let go of the control and just allow a man to fuck my mouth and throat while I am in the upside down position, but up to then, I will keep some of the control and just enjoy what happens!

© Rebel’s Notes

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