P is for Pain & More

For this year’s A-Z Challenge I decided to focus on things that I have come across during our 5 years of active kink, and share my experiences and things I have learned, my opinion or things I am curious about. In each post I am using an image that has been used on my blog before, with a link to the original post.

Continued from… O is for Obedience & More

Pain

So, do you think I like pain? If you have been following along in this series, you have read what I said under the headings blood play, clamps, impact play, lash, masochism and nipples. I think it’s quite obvious that I am into pain, but as said in some of those pieces, there are times when I don’t like pain at all. I think it’s all about mindset too. If I had a bad day or a couple of bad days, I cannot handle any physical pain. But, I can handle the pain if I am feeling on top of things and maybe even a bit horny too. Then, there are times when I think that I won’t be able to handle pain, but I end up handling more than I normally do. Why it’s this way, I have no idea. I accept it as it is and submit to whatever Master T has in mind for me, knowing I can use my safeword if necessary.

Paddle

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Original post: Paddle Me
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Of course I have to talk about paddles too, since I have mentioned canes and floggers. We have several paddles, some which have smooth surfaces, one with three ‘flaps’ another with spikes and of course the vampire paddle. The one with three flaps is quite mean, since the energy of the lash seems to travel deeper than when Master T uses the smooth-surfaced paddle. This last paddle is quite mean too, but great to warm my bottom up for more. I have one favorite paddle and that is the vampire paddle, but more about that later…

Punishment

I have written about punishment before. Punishment is something I take seriously. If I have done something wrong, then I have to be punished, and whatever punishment Master T gives me, I take. Punishment can range from several lashes with a flogger or a cane, or a task he gives me. He once had me go to work for a week without underwear, and I swear, I had the idea that everyone could see that I wasn’t wearing a bra. I don’t mind much going without panties, but I prefer to wear a bra when I leave the house, even if I don’t really need it. One thing: even though I like to be given tasks, I hate being punished, even if it’s in the form of a task. I won’t deliberately do something wrong only to be punished. Being spanked because he wants to spank me is something totally different than being spanked because he punishes me.

To be continued… Q is for Questions

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4 thoughts on “P is for Pain & More

  1. The punishment thing is something I can never get my head around. I can understand being flogged or whatever as a means of pleasure, but I can’t equate being punished using violence as part of a loving relationship. In theory, I understand it’s not abuse as it’s consensual and that the submissive even actually enjoys it. But isn’t there times where you just want to do something, even if it’s not allowed, and be able to say ‘Yeah, I screwed up’ and just move on?
    This isn’t a dig at you, I’m just trying to understand how the whole punishment thing works for a submissive without leaving you feeling unsafe and like you don’t have your own voice in the relationship
    Debbie

  2. I like how you opened with pain and said that it’s not something that you always enjoy or even can take. I felt confused when I first starting wanting pain, and then on some days I couldn’t deal with it at all

  3. I understand about though you like the given tasks, tasks as punishment are indeed punishment. It’s a different mindset. Like pain is different when the mindset is different. It makes sense. 🙂

    Han

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