I Watch Porn

I watch porn.

I. Watch. Porn.

There, I’ve said. It: I watch porn.
I guess it won’t come as a surprise to many of you, but you will understand once I have explained.

I grew up in a very conservative and prudish environment. Sex was the last thing that was ever discussed. I noticed at a young age that I was more interested in the sexual side of life than my peers. Fast forward a couple of years, to my first marriage. This is before Internet and before I ever lay eyes on a magazine with nude pictures. In the marriage I realized that my interest in sex was more ‘extreme’ than his. I was curious to try new things, but also curious to see images of fucking couples. I was ashamed of my feelings and never spoke to him about it.

Fast forward some more, to the Internet era. It didn’t take long for me to realize that I could watch porn online. I was hooked. Instantly.

But I was also ashamed. Ashamed of watching the clips I found. Ashamed of even typing in a search string for the kind of porn I wanted to watch at the moment. Watching porn was wrong. All my life I have heard how wrong it was, that it was ‘common people’ who watched porn. This meant that watching people made me ‘common people’ too, right? I was bad for watching porn. I would burn in hell.

I couldn’t stop. I didn’t want to stop.

It became my secret. I continued watching porn. Not daily, but I had my moments where I would watch the one clip after the other. The one time I would watch only clips with anal penetration. On another day I would watch clips where a nice massage would turn into a fuck fest. BDSM clips, gang bang clips, clips with outdoor sex… those were other categories that I frequently watched. The type of clip I chose always depended on my mood, but always the reason for starting a clip and continuing to watch, was that I was horny and that I ‘needed’ to see naked, moving images. Sometimes the urge was so strong that I couldn’t think of anything else but to watch porn.

And yes, there was a time where I was alone and I would even masturbate while watching porn. Once I had reach an orgasm, I wasn’t interested in watching anymore.

I have never told Master T about my watching porn. Or rather, I might have mentioned it, but it was only a couple of months ago that I admitted to him that I watch porn at least once a month. He wasn’t shocked at all. In fact, He loved the idea.

TPDoverviewI know of only two sites where I can watch porn, and sometimes I just cannot find something on there that really satisfy me. Sometimes this was very frustrating, but now I have something that’s even better. I have been alerted about a website – a porn list – The Porn Dude. Except for the two websites I frequently used, they have 27 different sites where one can watch porn. But, this isn’t all. They have a lot of other links on their list too – 99% of them porn-related. The list is a place from where you can click through to different other sites and watch porn as much as you want to! I bookmarked the site, making sure I never have to enter search strings on a search machine again.

Am I still ashamed that I watch porn? No, not really. It’s part of who I am and I don’t have to hide it anymore. So…

I. Watch. Porn.

And I enjoy every minute of it!

Disclaimer: This post is sponsored, but all words in the post are my own.

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4 thoughts on “I Watch Porn

  1. Ditto to your reply to S/sleter . . . and for another sort of “erotic” videos I really do recommend you visit MakeLoveNotPorn . . . not just for my videos there, but because I really do think it offers a fun and still exciting alternative to normal/mainstream porn. (There is more info on my MLNP page at my site if I am allowed to say that). Xxx – K

  2. I look a lot at pictures and untill now I never watched a complete porn movie, but after reading your ‘confession’;-)… I think I should watch one together with my wife.

    • Marie Rebelle says:

      Oh you should watch it together with your wife. I love watching a porn movie with my Husband ๐Ÿ™‚

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