For a moment I contemplated whether I should write a piece of erotica or not.
I have opted not to…
I think all of us have ever been asked questions such as:
* What would you do with a million bucks?
* What would you do if you win the lottery?
* What would you do if you never have to work again?
* What would you do with three wishes?
We have all answered those (and other similar) questions before. Me too. But as I got older, I started to say that I do not know what I would do, as one only knows what he/she will do in any given situation, once you are in it. I believe that we cannot predict how we would react if anything major happens to us, whether good or bad. I started taking on this opinion after I had a huge scare. I once had a conversation with a colleague about breast cancer and we both agreed that if we would find a lump in our breasts and breast cancer was diagnosed, we would have the breast amputated to make sure nothing spreads. I was totally convinced of this, until I discovered a lump in my left breast and realized that I do not want to be without hem at all, as I am very proud of my breasts!
But, I digress… for this post I will try to dream away…
So what would I do with three wishes?
First of all, I would want to be able to stop working. I want to be able to live comfortably when I stop and I want to be able to be busy with my writing every day. I already run my blog/website like a business and I think I will do even more so if I had more time for it. My full-time job is really interfering with my blog work. Being tired on a Friday evening is no fun, as that is the evening when I want to write, write, write until the wee hours of the morning. So yes, my first wish would be to be able to stop working, but to maintain the level of life we have now.
A second wish is for us to be able to live our kinky life the way we want to. Just like any other pair who has kids, we have to take the kids into account. Master T cannot just give me a spanking when He wants. He cannot tell me to crawl or sit at His feet when He wants that, not before we know for sure that the kids are upstairs and will stay there. He cannot command me to do something when the kids are around. Another thing is that we both have a full-time job and some weeks are challenging. Sometimes we are just too tired to do anything and I would want for this not to be. And then I go into a negative circle, where I get restless and unhappy in myself, because I miss his control, as I have mentioned on this blog several times before. Here I get back to my first wish – to stop working. Of course I would not want to be the only one who stops, but I would want Master T to be at home too.
My last wish, but certainly to me the most important one – and the most morbid one – is for Master T and me to be together forever. And in forever I mean up to the day we die. Because yes, I want to die on the same day as He does, or at least before He does, because I cannot imagine myself a life without Him. Believe me, I think of this some times and I have to push the thoughts away, because they make me feel panicky and incredibly sad. Even just typing this gives me a dry mouth and I can feel the tears forming in my eyes, making it difficult to type. Thankfully I am not busy with this thought all the time, and I know we cannot choose when and how our lives end. This is just one of my deepest wishes.
I know with these three wishes I could have said a lot of other things, but those are the things that are important to me now, at this moment. If you ask me the same question in 5 years, I might give three totally different answers, although I think my third wish will always be part of my wish list.
But in the end I will always say that we would not know what we would do in any given situation, until you are actually in the situation.
© Rebel’s Notes
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