There are so many things that I am curious about. In the bus tour fantasy that I have written, many of the things that I am curious about, have been mentioned. Thinking back on it, I think the main thing I am curious about and something that I would really like to try, is to be have myself ‘used and abused’ by someone else, at my Husband’s orders. I would like to start ‘small’ though, with only one other person present – male or female. Picturing the situation in my mind, I think it will be easier for me when the other person is female. I’m very sensitive to other people’s feelings and would not want to hurt my Husband’s feelings if another man fucks me, even though I know that it will be because He ordered it and with His full consent.
Once one person has ‘used and abused’ me I would like to step it up a notch, so to speak, and then eventually get to the point where I am in the middle of a gangbang. Where men and women can do to me whatever they want – within the boundaries set by my Husband. I can imagine myself being tied to a St Andrew’s cross and being licked, kissed, bitten, sucked and flocked all over my body as well as fucked in every hole. Springing to mind now is the scene where I suck and lick a woman’s pussy while being fucked both in my ass and my cunt. Yes, I think this is something I would really like to try.
Back to reality… how does one make this happen. In our experience it is quite difficult to get into touch with likeminded people. Yes, we are in touch with some, but mostly they live on the other side of the pond from us. Either that, or real life issues prevents us from taking steps in this direction. But we keep on dreaming… and I am getting more used to the idea that something like this will one day really happen!
(written on 21.08.2011)
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